Can you see it? The middle finger waving its missing paint for all the world to see? Well I do - I have stared at it for two days and it has made me cringe like crazy! I know, some of you are rolling your eyes already at this sort of detailed neuroticism. Some of your nails look like a 5 yr. old painted them or like you’ve been working on oil rigs and you don’t care. Ok, I get it - you don’t care. Cool. But hang with me because this isn’t my point . 🤣
I’ve contemplated multiple times a day for the last two days how to squeeze in a quick fix. I have WANTED to fix this. So. freaking. Bad. It’s so small, but my eyes and my mind kept focusing on this tiny flaw. I had no red polish at home. I had no time to go to the store to get some, I do not have a personal assistant to do said errand. I also had no time to deal with a list for Shipt (basically a personal assistant). I had zero time to stay up picking my other nail polish off clean - which would be my typical, reasonable solution. But actually - I’m lying now...
Because I did have time. Because I make time for what I truly value. And wow. It hit me: I chose what was better: the last two days I chose yoga, being present at my kids games and practices, working on micro loans and pitches for @lovelyenterprises
, handling tough conversations at work, writing our @jesussaidlove
newsletter, taking phone calls from old friends, silence, singing, reading, reflecting on Advent, cooking, feeding, and lastly... I have spent significant time making space for my story. I chose these over missing nail polish.
I got my 2 year Al Anon chip today and was invited to share my journey. This recovery circle has helped me in So.Many.ways. And the evidence: I was able to share my story, fully present today without even thinking about my missing paint. If I can’t let go of little things, my guess is: I can’t let go of some big things either. #progressoverperfection #presentoverperfect #letgoandletgod #keepitsimple #letitgo #12steps #alanon #serenityprayer #choices #ruthlesslyprioritize #imperfectcourage #giftsofimperfection