“Growing up in Mumbai in the 90s as an awkward teenager who didn’t fit into the conventional norms of being pretty or girly enough, what did you decide to do? Rebel any way you could. How? By being (or in my case trying to be) a goth.
Goths hadn’t really hit the Bombay scene then, so you did what you could in the circumstances: wear black and pretend to be disinterested.
One day, while I was busy brooding and being teenager-like, I stumbled across a film called The Crow in my video rental library. The title instantly intrigued me, especially as a budding goth – anything dark and macabre was on my radar. I needed to watch it, but these were the days of VHS and one TV per household, so I had to wait until the next day to have the TV to myself.
The film revolutionised my world: it was dark and beautiful, violent and romantic, angry but tender (and OMG, who was this bike-riding-dressed-in-black-guitar-playing-vengeance-seeking GOD?) I watched the film almost every day and knew the script by heart: I loved the line “It can’t rain all the time” (until I moved to England and realised it could). I must have worn out the only copy in the shop.
At any costume party, while everyone else was dressed in goofy or girly outfits, I was there, dressed up as The Crow.The white make-up allowed me to hide my face and mask the awkwardness and unattractiveness I felt inside.
In a time of confusion, self-doubt and shyness, watching The Crow (among other films like Bram Stoker’s Dracula and Interview with the Vampire) allowed me to escape into a world where it was cool to be different.
I still watch The Crow every now and again (my own copy on Blu Ray) but I haven’t dressed up in the costume for a while.”
on dealing with teen angst in the ‘90s.
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