YOU’RE NOT HOT ENOUGH FOR A PHOTOSHOOT
when I was a chubbier awkwarder version of myself in middle school I remember walking past the @hollisterco
stores thinking to myself that I wasn’t hot enough to walk inside. the half naked models standing outside or the massive posters of half naked models made me feel inferior. Like I wasn't enough. I even thought that if I walked in they would just start laughing and shaming me. so I shuffled my feet and just walked past the store with my head down.
that narrative played out through high school, college, and post college. maybe not to that extent but it boiled down to a “you’re not hot enough” narrative. -
even past the chubby awkward phase I think a core part of it has been that you don’t see many Asian people in American media. as a kid, all the models in the magazines were predominantly white dudes. all the super heroes were white dudes. the Asian dudes were usually framed as the kid good at math (although I was good at math 🤓). they were not typically framed as the cool, attractive, heroic character.
this was my first photoshoot and it brought up the made up insecurities I had again. the funny thing is after I was done. I was feeling myself and thought “well shit. I’m a model now. brb adding it to my linkedin”
I saw @crazyrichasians
recently. it made me realize that I never had this as a kid. exposure to the idea that Asians can be cool, hot, etc. Much like how people are saying kids are finally getting the black superhero they deserve through @blackpanther
. although not a superhero movie (yet) I can bet due to @crazyrichasians
that there is some young asian kid who will see the movie and think “I can be a movie star too”. -
anyway. this is really long. summary is. if you want to be in a photoshoot. just go do it. you’re hot enough. thanks to @katkatty
for always telling me I’m hot because now I’m a model 📸👲🤳🏼.
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