The tour is over.
What should I say? The end went in a bliss, I couldn't even think about it. I didn't report Munich's and Cologne's live but it was great, Munich was the best live of the tour without any trouble. Cologne was cool but the fans were really shitty and the security kept talking during the songs and it was really awful ("kusosugiru" as Keiko-san has said) In Cologne I got to give a letter to Die and Takabayashi (my new love ♡ he made such an amazing job during the entire tour I wanted to thank him for that!) But I didn't have any time to write something to Toshiya and I was really sad. I'm going to write it now and send it I guess. It will help me to improve my Japanese haha.
Now, I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I don't know what I want anymore, I feel like I'm going nowhere with what I'm doing now. I got to meet some really wonderful people from everywhere (Finland, Italy, Japan, Arabia, Sweden, China, America, Germany...and of course some French too, hehe!) and every ages. I'm back in France, but definitely not for a long time. I quitted my job because it was really shitty and I needed to breath some fresh air again. I will try to finish my school year and get some ok grades, but I don't think I will keep on studying here. This tour, I did it because I wanted to do it since 2015. Just like when I went to Japan because I needed to see them in 2017. These people, the fans I met and the band, made me realise that what I was doing was wrong and I needed to get back to the right path. I forgot my social anxiety and talked to them, I got to practice my English and a bit of Japanese, I just tried to act like a normal human being and noticed that if I have something in connection with the others I can talk pretty well even if it's not my native language. Dir en grey is the connection I was looking for the entire time. I don't want a "normal life with a job and a home and everything planned everytime". I'm young, I want to take advantage of this and live the life I always dreamed to live.
I want to go everywhere. I want to take care of myself. I want to live.
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