The Fall of my discontent. .
I went shopping today. Put my body in front of mirrors. It was really quite soul crushing.
As much as I know my value to my loved ones and my community, it was all I could do to try on everything I had brought into the dressing room.
So I bought the stuff that looked nice on me. I hope to camouflage myself well. But I'm reeling with a hangover of horror of my 52 year old body.
I'm angry that I can't just love and be OK with it.
I know that as long as we hate ourselves, we are our own oppressors.
Is there only forgiveness in the Fix? .
#keepingitreal #mywisdomlessons #Soul_Selfie #taleswithfriends #bodyshame #bodyhatred
Instagram vs Reality. Yesterday our AMAZING new couch was delivered! 🎉 •
We have had an old, worn leather set that we bought for $125 at a garage sale 5 years ago, but had so many holes it belonged in church (it was holy🤣-sorry for the dad joke). So we FINALLY decided to replace it with something new and that our whole HUGE family could be on at once. •
Yesterday I had it all together...every pillow fluffed for each girl as she came home from school so each one could react accordingly. 😍😍😍😍
That lasted approximately 2.5 seconds and today...one day later, it looks like this. Binders and LaCroix cans and sun glasses and book bags...pillows everywhere and one kid’s sweatshirt from yesterday. •
My friend told me it’s “gorgeous and symbolic of motherhood” when I sent her these pics side by side. •
So I’m just gonna go with that! 😂👍
This is hard. So so hard 😭 she won’t sleep without me so my partner has resorted to sleeping on the sofa, I hate us being separated like this even though he’s just in the next room. I keep telling myself that this isn’t forever, who knows one day I might miss these times. There’s no such thing as night or day anymore, we don’t even have any concept of time 😴 all I know is that every day that ends is a day closer to my partner going back to work and then I’m flying solo 😱 the past couple of weeks have been the craziest rollercoaster of emotions, for my partner as well as for me and we are just so exhausted. Our baby girl is healthy and bonding well with both of us so there is always something to be grateful for 💙
#thebadreviewer #newmum #firsttimemum #keepingitreal #newborn #breastfeeding #exhausted #emotional #parenthood #struggling #fourthtrimester #bitmoji
Can’t believe this little guy is 18 months old this month. It’s flown in most ways. Some days and weeks we hit a stride and things work *fairly *smoothly. Other weeks can be more difficult. We’ve had rough patches - like in the beginning (going from 1 -> 2 children was a roller coaster!), and the last couple weeks have been more difficult...both kids have been incredibly demanding - both physically and mentally/emotionally. 18 months is a big mental leap, and with teething it’s been...tough. Lots of night time waking, only wanting mama, wanting to be held 24/7, and cranky as all get up. Then I have a 3.5 year old who is so smart, and flexing his independence, and testing me big time (while also needing to be cuddled and reassured - BIG emotions in a 3 year old 😅). The last couple weeks he’s been talking more like a teenager than I’d care to admit. He’s saying “fine” and stomping his feet as his agreement on something, and literally grinding his heels in at anything we ask him to do. It’s been draining..
But at the same time I’m not losing sight of how blessed I am be their Mom, and I’m confident that God made me exactly for this. So yesterday we stopped to smell the flowers. Enjoy the sun. The small moments. The happy moments, and the hugs at bedtime. I am choosing to focus on those things, instead of the tantrums and lost sleep. After all, they will soon be memories of the past, and my babies will be big boys needing less of me..
Sharing this because this is exactly where I’m at. This is my season. My season of littles, and lots of demands on me as a mom/wife/business owner/professor/friend/daughter/sister/fighter and the list goes on and on. So many of my roles are intertwined at the moment. There are highs and lows and everything in between. Sometimes it’s complicated and sometimes it’s simple. Life is full of so much beauty in each season 💕 I hope you’re choosing to see the beauty today.
So I know there’s no crying in baseball ⚾️ ... or over spilled milk 🥛 ... but I can cry over this right? This is all that is left of my brand spankin’ new tub of Coconut Lime body butter. 😭😭😭
I literally got it the end of last week and had used it once. Lilly got into it about 15 minutes ago... and it has since been reduced to what you see pictured below. 😪
The good news:
😷 I don’t have to worry about her getting a nasty reaction from any hidden toxins
🛏 My bedroom now smells awesome
👶🏼 Lilly’s skin is smoother than a newborn baby’s bum
#lookingonthebrightside #forrealstho #shesfired #shesluckysheissocute
I am now officially 3 months into my journey and week 2 into @eliseniu
This week I feel f*cken amazing! I get so much done in the mornings, and most days I can keep going till after dinner.
Last week we had a family tangi to attend for a beautiful woman who had her special place in our (but especially hubbys) heart. I did the best I could with food not the kind of environment where you can be fussy. Im happy enough with my efforts. Its all about choices aye?! Just focusing in hard for the other 7weeks since getting home.
Good sleep, good food, and workouts what a difference it all makes 😍❤ I've absolutely fallen in love with this journey, with the efit 8 week challenge coming in at a perfect time, I know have some amazing friends my bestie and my sisters joining in which is so encouraging.
Touch rugby🏉 has started back up and although I've only been able to make one practice I could feel the difference in my movement and fitness!
Even with my back issue (which I got sorted yesterday 😍) I still felt strong and wow strong feels sexy. 🏋🏽♀️💪🏽There are so many things I can't wait to do properly, but for now they are all goals 🙌🏽 Happy Thursday yall ❤
#karmiesweighout #smashinggoals #gettinghealthy #gettingfit #gettinggains #loosingweight #myjourney #weightlossjourney #healthierme #hiit #fitspo #keepingitreal #dothemahi #positivevibes #trusttheprocess #efitchallenge #functionalhiit
V A R I E T Y 💀
Variety is an essential ingredient to success 👍🏼
Most people QUIT because they’re bored 🙄
Most people QUIT when they plateau ➖➖
But you’re not most people 🦄
Ways to add VARIETY to your workouts this week...
🍂 Go outside
↩️ Reverse the order of your workout
🎧 Listen to a new playlist
✔️ Check out a new gym or studio
👯♀️ Bring a friend
So grateful that @mrsgerard_
brought me to @thezenboxiowa
last weekend for some much needed VARIETY in my life 🎃
So I got paid two days ago for selling shampoo!! What what?? Still blows my mind.
But what I love even more than that is this new found freedom with time. I work hard believe me. I run a team of ambitious, determined women. I take care of 900+ VIP customers. And I run my household: grocery shopping, laundry, cleaning, doctor appointments, pick up and drop off....
However, I do these on MY schedule. Busy morning, evening plans, impromptu vacation or field trips like today? No problem. Just shift things around. I can now sign up for all of this so I don’t have to miss time with my babies. Today the caves with my 3rd grader. Tomorrow the pumpkin patch with my kindergartener. So special to hold hands, ride the bus, and watch them explore with friends.
I don’t think a desk job is ever in my future again.
#timefreedom #childrenfashion #lovemykids #fieldtrip #exploringnaturewithchildren #momliferocks #timewithmykids #workmyway #myschedule #worklifebalance #buildingmyempire #keepingitreal #hairmagic #embraceyourself #speakup #lovinglife #buildingmydream #myownboss #momlifebelike #inspireothers
Today is a very typical day for me: morning out at private sewing lessons (more on that later), and the afternoon spent sewing. This is what four 517 totes look like when still in parts...I can't wait to show you the finished bags! 😍
The messy "studio" shot is inspired by my patron saint @meganauman
who is right to try and #endstudioshame
...making beautiful things is not always pretty, y'all! 😘
Full disclosure: this is actually a giant fold out cutting table that I have rolled into my bedroom to work on the big bags...my actual "studio" (aka dining room) is too small for it! (Plus I can't watch Netflix from there 😉) #inprogress #makersgonnamake #calledtobecreative #keepingitreal #onmysewingtable
Not quite sure what was more painful..the fact that this pina colada cost me £20 and it was only a mocktail or the fact I was watching my mum struggle while she was trying to hold the camera, hold the baby in the float and holding the camera case while trying to take my picture. -
QS - I have a little question for you to hopefully help me improve my content moving forward.. - why do you follow me and what would you like to see over the next few months? ❤ #brightsquad
Deeper Is Better Than Broader: When it comes to relationships, deeper is better than broader. A meaningful relationship with one person is better than one hundred Facebook friends. Why is that Matik? Well I’m glad you asked! It’s because the real value of a relationship is only experienced when people can be real, and people can only be real when enough trust has been established to allow the vulnerability that being one’s true self entails. Now don’t get me wrong this is risky, messy business. Our true selves aren’t pretty sometimes and building meaningful relationships takes work. There will be hurts, misunderstandings, rejections…these are the risks but the rewards far far outweigh them! To read more about the benefits of deep meaningful relationships, check out my Authentic Joy blog (link in my profile). #authenticjoy #keepingitreal #vulnerability #authenticrelationships #deeperisbetter #love #nakedsoul #realfriendships
Excuse me while I go DIE of laughter! Guys have the manly voice when they start talking to another guy. Us moms have the sweet voice when we’re talking to our kids in public. I think I’ve yelled at my kids on Instagram before. 😂😂
I know it's NOT- all fun and games-
its just what's NEEDED🧡
🎵"Hey lil momma why you dance so funky"🎵👉🏾👉🏾
Yep these mamas are dancing on their journey to snapback! They've been told "it probably won't happen"
They've been told "it wouldn't be the same"
They've been told "abs!? Faget about it"
One thing about my ladies....they see a challenge and go after it! 1 baby, 2 babies, 3 babies. I think you can agree these ladies are killing it! And with seeing their RESULTS from first go round....how could they not push themselves.
They show up EVERYDAY sometimes with baby in tow. Press play, drink a superfood that builds nutrients for them AND their baby!
So mamas don't believe the naysayers telling you the snapback can't happen, you CAN get results......and you know what...they were gettin ot WHILE PREGGO! .
If you are in (anyone) and you are READY...drop a 👋🏾 below and let's make you my next transformation post!
“We rise by lifting others.” Feeling sad? Feeling bad? Do something for someone else. .
I decided to make muffins for my neighbors! Ummm, I’m no domestic goddess so I using a two ingredient recipe! A box of spice cake mix and one can of purée pumpkin! That’s it!! Can’t wait to put some whipped cream cheese frosting on these bad boys and deliver them to our sweet neighbors! Side note: Praying they eat gluten and gmo’s! 😂 Because, let’s face it... both of these ingredients have both. 🤷♀️🙈😳☺️🙄😂 Hey, we are all about purpose over perfection here! Have a great day sweet people!!#simplygive #reallife #weeatgluten #keepingitreal
There is no shame in stripping weight off the bar mid- workout if it means you will be able to keep moving through your reps.
Your goal is INTENSITY.
There is no shame in using irrigation boxes because the 20 inch box intimidates you.
You will jump HIGHER.
There is no shame in using a band for your pull ups, doing push ups from your knees or lifting an empty barbell.
You will get STRONGER.
There is no shame in having to do jumping MU, double under attempts or handstand holds.
Your technique will IMPROVE.
There is no shame if the weight you lift is less than your partners.
You lift the right weight for YOUR progression.
There is no shame in stopping a workout because an old injury flares up.
There is no shame or judgment if you have to take a step back from your usual routine to change it up to preserve yourself.
You protect your future HEALTH.
There is no shame in having to sub or modify the workout.
You create the best workout for you.
There is no shame in being the slowest. There is no shame for being the least fit, the heaviest athlete, the weakest lifter or the newest member. There is no shame in finishing 4th, or 5th, or last.
There is no shame in finding whatever it is that you love. Crossfit, body building, Pilates, spin, Zumba.... find what you love that helps your body and mind to achieve the goals you have set for yourself. Fitness isn’t a one size fits all!
When all is said and done... You get up, you get out the door, you show up.
You come, you move, you work, you sweat, you crumble.
You give your ALL.
So next time you feel stupid, weak, inadequate, frustrated or anxious about where you are right now, Stop.
There is no shame in being who you are in this moment.
The only shame lies in not striving to be the person you want to be tomorrow.
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Yeah, that’s chocolate on Jagger’s face from the popsicle he had for breakfast.🍫 Those are toys at the table to keep him occupied. 🚗 He’s still in his PJ’s at 11 am. Yes, he needs a haircut (Halloween costume reasons)🎃Yes, I’ve been wearing the same out fit 3 days in a row.👚👖👟. And no I didn’t make it to the gym like I had planned.🏋🏻♀️ Instead of the constant go lifestyle we live we are taking it slow and enjoying all the simple things we sometimes forget about.💙
Look at this for a sunset (ignore the rain marks on my mirror) 😍😍
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Instagram Vs. reality 😆👉🏻 .
Sometimes dealing with sibling rivalry drives me nuts! 🥜 The girls have many moments of connection when they’re laughing and bonding and they have moments when they’re yelling at each other and hurting each other’s feelings. In a perfect world, they would always get along, but perfect is nonexistent, and it’s overrated! If my girls perfectly got along I wouldn’t get to give my teachable moment, life lesson, “styling the inside” speeches to them 🤣They loveeee those. 😝 #stylingtheinside
I’m not the girl who gets dressed up to run errands... so leggings, tank, and a hoodie it is 🤷🏻♀️. What about you? Do you like to dress up and look cute or do you keep it low key like me?
My job is to motivate, encourage, love, inspire, and KEEP IT REAL! High waisted leggings are a woman’s best friend 🙌🏼😄 If someone on your Instagram feed is only sharing these perfect photos that make you feel like you are not good enough do yourself a favor and unfollow them as they are toxic to your happiness and self-worth. My mission is to make sure all of my followers are constantly reminded of their worthiness just the way they are— but also reminded that God created your incredible body for you to take care of. 💕
Camera Action. How low can you squat? 🍑
1. Doesn’t matter how much weight or how little weight you use.
2. Remember to squeeze your glut.
3. Position your legs using a shoulder width medium stance with the toes slightly pointed out, your knees should be in line with your front bit of your foot not over your feet.
4. Using a smith machine will help you have more support when squatting.
5. Practice makes perfect.
6.Need any help give me a shout?