A brief passage to try to explain to people one of the ways that ocd affects me #educating #share #letstalk #mentalhealth
--•--•--•--•--•--•--•--•--•- " #whatif
" my constant companion, my #tormentor
The power of a thought and of two little words, one small seemingly innocent question. At it's height I felt like a pinball in a machine being flung uncontrollably from one situation to another.
Leaving the house is a task of mental strength as it is, walking down the street, a railway level crossing, people, people of bikes, old frail people out shopping, cars....it's never ending. Then there is the whole other arena of risk of infection and illness. That dog walker with the bag of "business" those pigeons in the trees. When it's at its worst you feel like you have gotten through your journey/day purely by luck rather than design. Being propelled from one stomach twisting situation to another, the check, the double check, the long check, the go back and check.
as you walk away
(Don't even get me started on driving)
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