Beautiful and elegant with snowy views of the Smokies. Marquis & Kellie's fall wedding turned out amazing and we are so happy they shared their special day with us! Congratulations you guys! We wish you the best! 💕🍁 #mygatlinburgwedding #flowermountain #happyfallyall
Recordar: del latín re-cordis, volver a pasar por el corazón... #soypeperoldan
Why is sleep such a big part of my eating disorder?
Not saying that I can't sleep - I am always able to sleep.
In my deep anorexic years I forbade myself to sleep longer than 4 hours a day which turned me into a zombie and is probably part of the reasons why I hardly have any clear memory of those years.
After this in my bulimic years I used sleep as a possibility to not binge and to forget the binges and purges of the day....Thus I good a fair amount of sleep.
Now - in my indefinable years stuck in quasi recovery - I am still struggling with this. And probably more aware of this as a problem than ever before.
In the last years I started to sleep really really long way longer than I want to an longer than would be good. Sure my nightly eating is the reason why I am a night owl and stay up till after midnight but doesn't explain why I sleep easily 11 hours. The only explanation I have is that after waking up I do exercise and don't allow myself to eat until a specific time....so yeah sleeping is nicer than exercising and waiting hungry.
This oversleeping half the day is having an bad impact on my life and I desperately want a normal sleeping pattern back (okay at least as normal as anybody else...). Probably this goes hand in hand with a better eat pattern.
Again one of my reasons to claim that eating disorder impact not only your diet but your whole life.
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the colder the night, the better the morning
Spanish wild rice with yellow squash and zucchini 😋 quick lunch before we go meet up with some friends that will show us around town 🤗
When I drink this I don’t think about it. Its there like a scarf on a cold winters night. There to keep me warm, but I don’t really notice it. I just go about my stuff. Other times of enjoying this will be told later.
Climbing rocks, going through foliage and bushes just to get the shot. #anythingforthegram
Things come to an end so new things can begin. Been working on plans and its nice to sleep and relax.
Those summer days with a camera.
Feeling super happy today! 😊