I was bullied when i was a kid. I didn’t get along with girls nor boys. They all thought I was too weird when really I just didn't know how to express myself. I was a quiet loner( there is still a side of me that's introvert ) I was always either observing others or staring out of the windows n daydream about some place else I can be free to be myself without others' judgements. They called me 男人婆 ,陰陽人hermenphrodite cause I was physically girl but I behave a boy ( Girls' violence is via verbal. While boys' violence via action. Boys will tease me n lift my skirt up to check my panty in which after I beat up a couple boys, they became scared of me ) I didn't find my expression yet n everyone else has some sort of gender performance they expected from me... that also include my family. I didn't fit in anywhere. I was always an outsider. It was so horrible that I became suicidal at a young age. I hated school. Everyone ganged up on me because I was different. They called me names and pushed me around. I think this has a huge impact on why I always cheer for underdog.
I now do joke about me being a hermenphrodite. I have turn that negativity into rainbow positivity. Even my hair is hella asymmetric. Depending on which side your view, I can seem a different person all around.
My psychic and my body were in a tug of war, now i love my complexity.
Let them talk, let them stare…
I know who I am
I don't need validation or category.
I am complete
I hope your sense of worth and identity is also self served; not outwardly seeking. I hope you believe in yourself and love your uniqueness. I hope you rock your one of a kind self. Love n peace y'all xox ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
#CaciaZoo #Caciamurmur #nonbinary #mystory #nofilter #nomakeup #me
Давно стихов я не писала,
И вряд-ли, думала, что напишу.
Судьба со мной в игру играла,
Вот только знать бы, -
Почему?! В стихе своём я отражаю
Сердец надежды, ласку и любовь,
Себе его я посвящаю...
И тайну в строках обнажаю,
И мыслью я не умолкаю... Не эгоист я! Так и знайте!
Могу про многое писать...
А вы, друзья, почаще душу обнажайте,
И перестаньте друг другу врать! © моё личное
P. S. Захотелось просто написать стих, не привязывайте его ни к чему, у меня все хорошо и ничего не случилось😊. А если стих понравился, буду рада 💚 и комментариям.
#моеличное #стихи #вдохновение #осень #деньчудесный #отдых #выходные #чистыеэмоции #чувства #я #ты #мы #все #люди #красота #баланс #гармония #balance #time_for_yourself #beautiful #autumn #autumntime #october #nature #nofilter #river #life #satisfied
I was talking to a friend the other night and they were asking why I post so much? Do I do it because it makes me feel good or so I do it to get attention?
I post because it makes me feel good about myself. If people comment and like, that's awesome, I really appreciate any kind of compliment or constructive criticism.
But when people tell me I only post just to get likes and followers, makes me pretty annoyed. I'm here trying to better my health. Not just physically but mentally as well.
They told me to post a picture of myself in black and white. No filters, no adjustments, no flexing to see what people say. Honestly, I was a bit hesitant as first because occasionally I'll use a focus filter or sharpening tool. What's the point of going overboard and using ten different filters?
So here we have it. Unfiltered, unflexed and black and white.
If you have any comments, by all means, leave them. But if you're going to be intentionally harsh, I'll delete the comment. ❤