Day 1 #INTOTHEDEPTHS
Once upon a time, there was #conflictavoidance
in the basket my family filled for me. Teenage me would sometimes reach a breaking point with the overwhelmingly unreasonable expectation of #tolerance
at all costs, and I took it out on Mom, who ran a strict home and worked part time.
The ever-praised attribute of being #hardworking
remains in my basket, and it has been there always. Dad worked double 2nd/3rd shifts, on call all the time - I'd have night terrors, sleep walk, & try to call Dad on the phone, seeking comfort from whatever horrified my subconscious.
BUT they paid off their mortgage early. We lost Mom, discovered how many pennies she had stashed, & Dad was able to relocate to where he wanted to retire... only he still works to make ends meet.
Avoiding conflict left me struggling to get out of a problematic marriage; I found myself trapped in a life of #expectedtolerance
no matter how I was treated. I finally realized that I couldn't make someone else happy - it had to be his choice. Instead, I adjusted my perspective - I needed to mind my own!
As I intentionally made myself happy, pursuing my own interests and engaging again in my neglected hobbies, I was able to grow and again refuse to tolerate another person's oppressive attempts. I dove into taking care of myself, which pushed my unsuitable match away further. It was an invited #divide
I didn't realize could be such a blessing, as a woman reestablishing her individual identity, rather than allowing more of Life to pass me by. The more actively I participated in my own experience, the greater the space grew until the #attachment
faded and I realized #thepromise
as I learned the greatest lesson in #lettinggo
Hard work remains a part of my identity as I straddle 2 careers with a small business on the side.
I am working on blending the two and finding success faster than I'd fathomed!
The more I gain, the more I #checkmyself
- I am not truly successful if all I do is work.
I'm working perpetually on striking #balance
between the two. 🙏🏽 for stirring the internal dialog,
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