I am really excited about my next Thriver TV episode - Dealing With Narcissists In Difficult Situations coming out tomorrow!
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I hope you enjoy the episode, I think it will help a lot of people.
Much love xo ❤️
Was trying to keep my hair a surprise, but basically everyone I know has seen it already. 🤷🏽♀️ Every time I hit a really low point, I do something with my hair...instead of leaving more scars on my body, or taking my own life. Scars never go away and you can't get back your life once it's gone...but your hair always grows back and dye eventually washes out.
Last night, as you can tell by the post I made, I was NOT feeling well. At all. I was beating myself up for having mental illnesses, I was feeling envious of everyone around me.. One hell of a pity party it was. I'm feeling a little better today. A lot of weight was lifted off my shoulders after opening up. I really don't like posting stuff like that, but sometimes it's better to get it out. Ya know?
This haircut makes me feel like a new person, and I'm really loving that. Bangs really make such a difference lol...well, that's it. Adios.
I want to go home, get back into my routine and restrict again. These last three days have been horrid. I've binged to the point of feeling so full. I am deeply depressed, although I am trying to fake being happy. How do I have anorexia? I want to restrict, I am fucking doing it tomorrow or I honestly don't know what I will do to myself. Being small and in control is everything. I rather be skinny than eat
HER STORY - Nightmares plagued her life; they were lengthy, elaborate dreams with imagery that evoked fear, anxiety or sadness. At times, she would wake up to avoid the perceived danger. Her nightmares were vivid upon waking leading to difficulties returning to sleep causing daytime distress. Life was affected by them resulting in feelings of extreme fear, horror, distress, and anxiety. She repeatedly woke during the night recalling the details of frighteningbdreams that centered around threats to survival, security or physical harm. She was a young wife and mom who had aspirations of achieving great things. She was ambitious, smart, creative and enthusiastic in all of her endeavours, but her nightmares were crippling her from reaching these goals and pursuits. .
What was her fate? A life if unfulfilled goals and aspirations? Fortunately, she was led through the Memory Resolution Technique (TMRT) where essential oils were used to bring a calming effect soothing the emotions as the Memory of her nightmares were processing. She found the experience serene even as she was processing the painful memories. Her memory was brought into her consciousness and she re-processed the memories resulting in her letting go of the upsetting image. The trigger of these nightmares was discovered and resolved from harming her emotionally any longer. She was then able to anchor a new, positive and strong image. Her nightmares are gone. She now has a profound change in her self-image and a renewed feeling of being able to fearlessly tackle her pursuits with confidence. .
Tell me about your dreams.
Clearly when I post pictures and say I'm fat, it's because I honestly believe it. Thus, I am not trying to get attention. I feel like a giant in this picture. I have Anorexia, therefore my perception of myself is quite distorted. Just a heads up,
1. I can't drive anymore which I miss dearly
2. I spend most of my time these days in appointments or in hospital
3. I barely work now, because I always end up in hospital and miss it so much especially the people
Yep I want this attention jkes