"Explore yourself" - Bebu, Burning Seed (Regional burning man event) Mating State forest, NSW, Australia. 2018
Life advice from burners.
Bebu stood alone in a field, a lone hooded figure. He looked so mysterious, I had to ask for his photograph.
• YOU WERE ALWAYS MY FAVOURITE • People are hard to hate close up. Move in!
I love catching these in-between moments!
I haven't been putting any of my new handmades up online - they've either sold, been rented/or used for a shoot, so if you spot a piece you would love to have, be sure to slide me a DM. 🙌✨
October 16 2018, I turned 23 first and mostly I'll thank god for letting me live a little longer. Since I was 20 years old I always use my birthday to reflect myself rather than having huge celebration.
This year is no different, I am being reflective about myself, remembering every good and bad deeds that i did this year, have I accomplish things? Am I being useful? Am I a good person? Those are question that I ask myself.
This year is quite roller coaster for me, I found another side of me that I don't want to remember, incident that makes me want to disappear, drastic change on my lifestyle, relationship w/ friends and partner, mental health that I have for years now.
I lost friends because of something outrageous that I did, but I couldn't remember due to blackout because of mania episode, I was put in the position where nothing change whether I say the truth or not, however I still took accountability of my mistake, hoping that I give clarity to those people involved. Sadly they chose to tell my personal problem and it spreads out to people who don't even see my side of story, but the tables are against me, the only thing that I can do is moving on and cut ties to everyone involved.
Unfortunately, since that blackout my mental health was something I paid attention to foremost, and I am now back to medication which awfully tiring to drink medicine everyday, and yes goodbye alcohol. I couldn't function properly, I forced myself to remember what happened to me, and I did it and shared it to few very close friends that still stand behind me, and I forgave myself.
Yet, I am still here, I gained a lot of experience and met other people. I can see my quality of friendships that I built eventually, and it's something really liberating, I am back with my projects and build another opportunity to do something productive to my surrounding.
So what's next? I want to create more, I plan to branch out to business venture and MC-ing. I want to move and work from Jakarta to another place to find out if I can survive, and start all over again (my mom wasn't amuse of this idea, but knowing me it shall happen eventually). So thank you everyone.