Tall Building of the Year
There’s days when everything in the future is finally starting to look up and it seems like everything will be perfect someday soon. And then I fuck yo and I fuck up bad and even though I have all this great shit coming to me soon, I can’t help the thought of ending my life to lessen the burden I put on other people. It would be better if I wasn’t here to keep fucking up everyone else’s day. It would be better if people could have a day free of me. And I wish I could have just one day when I didn’t have to be me. I wish I could buy a new mind and body and just forget how much of a waste of resources I am. I wish I could forget every time I’ve hurt someone. Every time I took things too far. Every time I was so desperate for affection that I jeopardized my personality for it. I wish I wasn’t so fucking broken and displaced but at the same time I know that if I were to take action, I couldn’t do it while my mother is still alive. She’s the one person who would care and who would actually hurt. And I can’t do that to her so it’s a waiting game now. I want her to live a long and beautiful life but at the same time I want her to be okay if I took my life and the only way that would happen was if she passed before me. She always said the worst pain in the world is the pain of a mother having to bury her child and if I intentionally did that, I would be the worst person I’ve ever known. And I can’t do that to her. But I need his all to end. I need to stop feeling like I’m suffocating. I can’t breath without realizing the oxygen I’m stealing from a life of more value.
Chasing your dreams and putting effort in it. You'll find your way to succeed
One thing I am always hunting for is inspiration in my photography
Old Plantations of Virginia...we love to explore haunted places 😱
People are like stained - glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within
"In ignorance, I am something; in understanding, I am nothing; in love, I am everything." - Rupert Spira .
Una luz entre la oscuridad.
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