Long rant - poor grammar and English - word vomit... *** let me make some things clear. This is not a “Mormon bashing” post. This is me and my thoughts and my feelings and experience. For my friends and family who still participate with this religion, i support you fully in what you choose to do. However, please give me the same courtesy. This is an ‘agree to disagree’ situation. You accept me or you don’t. Also - i would like to point out that i have had MANY church leaders and bishops that I’ve had positive and wonderful experiences with, so in no way am i passive aggressively trying to throw anyone under the bus *** I don’t usually post about controversial things, these recent allegations that have come out lately about the church i was baptized in (and wanted and tried so much to believe), but i just have no tolerance for this. From the accusations of inappropriate bishop interviews (me experiencing this embarrassment and invasive-ness, myself) - And if you’ve been moral enough or at least pretended to be moral enough to avoid such interviews - i hope you keep an open mind to what this might be like - to an MTC president ADMITTING molestation and inappropriate sexual misconduct during his time at the MTC (I’m sure this wasn’t the only calling he held while he continued this behavior). This is a person who is ‘called of god’ - a person people trust their CHILDREN with. I can’t get past it. It doesn’t make sense. You can argue that people have free agency and that ‘god will sort it all out’ all day long... it’s not an excuse, and we are alive right now - why are we waiting until we die to make others pay for the decisions they make that forcefully harm others? And like i said, this will be just the beginning of countless accusations against church leaders dating waaaaay back. Mark my words. (...cont’d on next post)
I’m sure this post will upset some of you and that’s ok. It’s my opinion but i feel it’s important for me to word vomit that out into the world. But i hope that it makes you think. And i hope that it makes you take an honest look at your life and if you’ve experienced something similar - PLEASE SPEAK UP.
I loooove my friends that I’ve met during my time in the church and i plan to continue those relationships throughout eternity. Celestial kingdom or not. I’m simply trying to explain just some of my reasoning for making the decision to leave the LDS church 3 years ago. It doesn’t mean I’m a bad person, i didn’t decide to follow the devil, I’m still the same person i always was. Except now i make decisions and hold myself accountable instead of living in fear of rejection or judgement from church members and leadership. I talk to the god that i believe in and i work on things that i know i need help with. I don’t go to church for 3 hours a week anymore and i no longer wear garments, i worship my Heavenly Father in my own way. I’m no more, but certainly not anything less than anyone else because of my decision (and if you think differently on that thought, please unfriend me now). I just can’t do it you guys. I hope you still love me because I’m still the same person - leaving the church has been the most heartbreaking things I’ve ever done and I’ve never felt so alone. Where is the love and service from your fellow neighbors when you need it most? Just because you’ve decided a different path than was expected? i just need to get that out in the world because i don’t like having to justify myself more than once.
Thanks for reading, if you made it this far. If this post upset you - i can’t tell you how to feel, but i still love you no matter what. ❤️ http://kutv.com/news/local/lds-church-responds-to-allegations-of-sexual-assault-by-former-mission-president