Dear Jasmine, my big girl. My first born, my first baby. I love you with all my heart sweet girl. You have taken the arrival of your little sister Summer in your stride and I’m so proud of you. There have of course been many ups and downs, meltdowns and tears, challenges and tantrums. Your whole world has been turned upside down and at just over 2 years old, it’s far more than you’re able to really express to us. You are such a spirited one, full of life and so outgoing but beautifully perceptive and sensitive as well. You sense change and you know things are different now. Sometimes this has meant extra tears from you, extra cuddles and lots of reassurance. Sometimes this has meant pushing boundaries, throwing your cutlery across the room and doing everything to avoid going to bed at night. It’s all Ok. I understand it’s a lot for you.
I have done my best to be there for you as much as I can, even though your sister needs me a lot too. Sometimes I’ve lost my patience with you and I’m sorry. Sometimes I’ve not been able to be there and I’m sorry. Sometimes I’ve said how difficult toddlers are but I don’t mean it in a bad way. Toddlers, and that includes you, can be intense and full on. You require so much of my energy, in such a different way to a newborn and you deserve it too but it’s not always been easy to find that energy for you, at least when we’re both tired and you are pushing my buttons! It’s not your fault at all. You are simply amazing. You start your day talking and you don’t stop until you’re asleep at night. I love hearing your sentences and your stories and your voice will always be the sweetest sound to me. I love seeing you learn and play and socialise and laugh. I love that you challenge me and that your mood can be unpredictable. I love that you have so many sides to your soul and that’s what helps me be the best Mummy to you that I can be.
Your sister is here now and that means I have less time for you. Not less love, just less time. You are still my everything and I’m trying to put my tiredness aside and be fully present with you whenever I can be.
I love you and can’t wait to see the big sister you will become 💕💕💕