Flash back Friday to the spring/summer of 2017. This picture makes me so sad, I remember sobbing before hand, then he asked to take my picture so I put on a smile and let him. Why? I don’t know. I was so stupid, starving myself, barely getting out of bed, believing the lies he was feeding me everyday, I found safety in my bed and then he took that away from me too. But that is what it is like to live with a narcissist, a sociopath. Today a sexual assault case sits on the district attorneys desk waiting to be read, a month ago I received an order of protection against him from the courts, and yesterday I found out he wants to appeal this order. After a 6 hour court hearing, 5 of which was my testimony I cannot believe he would continue to try and victimize me. Why can’t he just let me go? With everything that has happened with the #metoo
movement to the #believeher
movement how can such evil men continue to try and abuse women. Boys won’t just be boys, those boys grow into men who manipulate and feel entitled to abuse. Why must he continue to try to be an active participant in my life? 90 pounds, that is how much I weighed in the depth of his abuse towards me, isolated and alone, 90 pounds of nothing. A little over a year later I am putting my life back together, continuing to go to school, going to therapy every week, working towards what it means to have a healthy relationship not only with myself but with my partner as well who of course is affected by my abusers attacks toward me.
This man owns a business, a child molester roaming free, continuing to abuse and abuse the legal system for his gains. When will these injustices stop?
Our society is failing, failing women, failing our children, all for what? To protect men who abuse their power?
We all know that men like this feel like they can do these things after the injustice of Kavanaugh being voted in and Trump being our president.
I want to say that voting will take care of this but we all know to well that isn’t true, communities must be made aware of who is lurking behind the masks of self proclaimed “good men”. #fbf #selflove #selfcare #narcissisticabuse #orderofprotection #survivor #recovery #psa