"I walk slowly, but I never walk backward." -Abraham Lincoln.
This morning, I participated in the infamous #wod
, the #murph
, with my #fitfam @gotribefit.
The Murph is a workout designed to pay tribute to those we honor on #Memorialday
. It consists of a 1 mile run, 100 pull ups, 200 push ups, 300 squats, and a final 1 mile run. It is very, very hard.
This was my second year doing it so my pull ups and push ups were more advanced than my last year, but it took me an hour and a half. This is, objectively, a very bad time. It's very slow. Actually, I'm among the slowest in the gym. As you can see, one of my bad ass peers did it in half the time. I broke it up into 20 sets, but by set 12, my brain quit on me. "I'm too weak. I'm too heavy. I'm too slow. I don't think I can do it. I don't think I can finish." It became totally mental. My body hurt, but my brain had zero faith in me. All I could do was just chip away at it, one rep at a time, trying to ignore how inadequate I felt compared to my peers. I did finish it, and I know my form was good, for every rep.
Truth is, I've been slow at everything I have ever done. Slow to develop, slow to learn, slow to find my voice, slow to find my creative path, slow to build a career, slow to get into fitness. I'm a late bloomer, a tortoise, a glacier. I had a friend call me a freight train once, "because you are slow to start, and hard to stop." I do not like to quit. Sometimes, that is the only thing I have going for me. Maybe you feel like me. You may not feel like the most impressive, the fittest, fastest, or the most advanced, in whatever field you are working at... but you don't quit. Sometimes that's enough. Love you. Proud of you.