I'm just sharing a bit of my thoughts with you, guys.
My deep deep thoughts about my feelings I try to hide from you.
Maybe it's a mistake, maybe not, I don't know, but I'm also afraid.
I'm afraid of losing people when they know me very well and I don't mean know my fav tv show or fav color, I mean my feelings, my thoughts.
I don't like to share my thoughts to my friends, my deep thoughts I mean, because I'm afraid and afraid of their reaction about it, so I shut up.
So I need that writing, I can express myself wen I'm writing, I can be a better person in that writing.
I wasn't always a good person, it was a phase were I was a bad person and I hated this phase, I've tried everything to come out of this shit and I kinda did it, but sometimes it comes out and I'm ignoring everyone and everything, I'm really sorry for that, 'cause I don't want that, but my mind want it like that, I can't control it, I'm really sorry for it.
You need to know that guys, when I don't respond to you, it's not your fault, it's my fault, when I'm ignoring you, it's not you, it's me, but don't forget, please never forget, that I love you so much and don't want to hurt you.
I don't have any apologies for that, just my past, where one person broke me and than another person and I try to get over it, but I have my days or weeks were is everything too much for me and I'm sorry for it, really.
So, please don't judge me.
I love you, guys.
Thank you for everything.
I needed to say that, maybe you read that or not, but I don't care, I needed to write it down. ❤️
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