When photos like this pop up on my time hop, I am sad and grateful all at the same time. I am sad that this little guy had to go through his first year of life in pain. Sad that as a mom I couldn’t fix it. But I am extremely grateful for where we are now and what we have learned. #swipeleft
to see him today!!! I hear people say all the time “You don’t truly understand until it affects you or your kids directly.” You say you understand, and know it must be difficult. But do you really?
Are you crying right along with your child because you don’t know what to do?
Did you have to hold your child’s hands at night and have him sleep on your chest because he wouldn’t stop scratching?
Are you scared at the park because you see a group of kids having a picnic lunch and are afraid they might have peanut butter on their hands when they go back to the park?
Did you have others tell you how sweet his smile was but think it was only because they didn’t know what else to say?
Did you avoid the outside during your child’s first summer because the heat made him miserable. And the bugs wouldn’t leave his sores alone?
Did you cry inside every time you say a squishy perfect little baby in just a diaper? When your little guy wore long sleeves, pants and socks on his hands for 7 months straight.
I don’t know if we ever understand what people are going through or struggling with.
Those memories still make me sad and even now thinking about them I start crying.
But I am also grateful for those memories. Surprisingly, I thank God for allowing us to experience this. We want to blame God for suffering, but without suffering we would not be able to understand the ultimate sacrifice.
Today, instead of being sad, I choose to be grateful. Grateful for my family. Grateful for the suffering, along with the joy, Grateful for the journey. Grateful for what I have learned through all of this. God has a plan and seeing that plan unfold and work in your life is not always easy, but trust he has it all figured out.
What are you grateful for today?