This certainly isn't the most Instagramish picture but the reason it's here is:
1. I don't have any other better pictures
2. I really want to write something and..well..yes, I don't have any pictures.
So the other day, I was thinking am I "Ammi" enough for my daughter?
You must be thinking I have officially lost it but no, not yet.
My point here is I always wanted to be the kind of mother my own Ammi is, to my daughter.
Who, in my mind, was this perfect Ammi since forever (yes, I strongly believe Ammi was hamesha se hamari Ammi. I mean, look at that Ammi poise and perfection!)
I always wanted to be the mother making the most perfect parathas.
An Ammi who has a solution to all your problems.
An Ammi who knows how not to panic even in the scariest of situations.
Ammi who has everything under control even when she has a lot on her plate with her job and Everything.
Ammi who is always dressed in the neatest and just the right clothes.
Ammi who has the super power where she recites some duas and no matter what the pain is it is gone.
Ammi who has this snuggly, warm bear like embrace that all you want to do is hug her bohaaaat zor se.
An Ammi who knows what to say and when to say it (small talk doesn't make her nervous.Wait, nothing makes her nervous 🤔).
An Ammi who boasts about sewing, knitting, embroidering, crocheting literally everything (from pardaas to bedsheets and ghararas and sweaters and what not).
An Ammi who you look at and you know she will make it work.
An Ammi who has more swag than any of the young lot and has answers to all the questions.
Ammi, who can find even the lost city of Atlantis if you tell her k Nahi mil rahi.
Ammi who just vanishes sometimes for everyone to desperately look and ask for, "Ammi Kaha hai?" And she just appears like, "Yahin tou thi Kahan jao gi?" (I am sure they have an Ammi Island where all the ammis go to chill whenever they disappear from the scene) .
And the list goes on and on...
Oh lord, I am definitely not Ammi enough 😓
Have you ever felt the same? I definitely want to be like Ammi, and probably these are all my parenting resolutions for the New Year.