The most important stuff I learnt this year was really about my feelings.
When I started digging into the spirituality path, I got the idea that I should celebrate the good vibes and think in positive always and always watch my thoughts to change them into positive ones every time they'd go in any other direction because, what you feel/think you attract, right? I'm not saying I'm not an optimistic person anymore and I'm not saying none of it matters But!!! Finding out that ALL my feelings matter and are important to be felt was really a eureka moment to me... Finding out that whatever I was feeling was okay and no matter how crazy or weird - or ugly those feelings are, they're still beautiful and divine.
Finding out that my feelings don't have to make sense to anyone - not even to me, and I can stop the over thinking tendency and breathe into it and just... feel it... I can stop resisting and just... let it flow... - finding my way through, right Trevor (Hall)?
I also found out that when I allow myself and open myself to my vulnerability... that's when I show my biggest strength and my biggest act of courage... and pretending that I have it all figured out and that I have it all together requires a lot of effort and energy and courage too, but this kind of courage is just not serving me anymore, and I can surely make better use of all this energy!
Last but not least, discovering that I don't need to save anyone and that I dont have to fix anyone - that's not my job at all, and, it is also true for myself, I don't have to be saved, or even fixed, and in my brokenness I'm still whole and this is just... amazing.