One time, I taught you to dance in the park.
I guess it’s those things I remember. The ones that made it like a fairytale. The ones that gave me butterflies and smiles to the point where I didn’t think I’d ever feel sad again. It was like the world was in constant sunshine and the smell of your sweater.
Remembering that is what makes it hurt. Not the times that you screamed at me, or the times you watched me scratch myself until I bled, and walked away. Not even the time where you left me crying on the sidewalk in the middle of January or the all the days you said it was my fault you weren’t happy. All the times I tried to fix you and let myself fall apart, just to see you smile.
No not even that freaking hurts the most. Not the scars you gave me, both the physical and mental ones. Not even the fact that I had to go away to college just to get away from you.
No, what hurts the most is remembering the time we danced. I thought you were someone you weren’t, and for a moment I was stupid enough to believe you actually loved me.
#words #letmespeak #heartbroken #selfharm #depression #anxiety #anorexia #prorecovery #mentalillness #abusiverelationship #lovequotes #dance #ex #heartbreak
Psh fasted for 43 hours but I had cooking class today and had to eat it + I live on monsters ah so good.
Im only eating a salad for the whole day yay
hiii sorry i was so inactive today, i spent all day with my friend and i helped her do her project that i’m gonna watch her present tomorrow! she wanted to try this new poké place so i got a small bowl, it was super yummy but kind of expensive, we went to the mall afterwards so i’m glad i was able to walk some of it off😅 i hope everyone had a good day/night!!💗💗💗
Yesterday I had the annual staff dinner at an all you can eat five star restaurant. I ate so much. I didn't have breakfast or lunch yesterday to be able to eat. So what I had was 4 small plates with different selections but I didn't finish everything on the plates. Today I woke us super bloated and my stomach all messed up.
Thus far I had
a oat bar in the morning with a black coffee (150)
a vegan sandwich (200) coffee with milk and a bit of sugar (50). I still haven't eaten dinner but it's not up to me... I'll try to eat have of the stuff on the plate and do a HIIT work out.
#thinspo #skinny #thinspo #fatspo #ana #anorexia #mia #bulimia #anamiatips #skinnyspo
hello my babies ✨ i've been doing very good the past couple of days ! i hope you guys have been doing well and getting what you need. im here if anyone needs to talk ❣️
Señales de alarma de trastorno de la conducta alimentaria:
Los trastornos del comportamiento alimentario, la bulimia, en particular, están aumentando alarmantemente.
Se estima que 3 de cada 100 adolescentes padecen anorexia nerviosa y 8 de cada 100 tienen bulimia nerviosa.
Estos trastornos, llevados a un extremo, presentan un desenlace fatal y en determinados casos se cronifican, lo que motiva desadaptaciones laborales, sociales y familiares de las personas que lo padecen.
Además, en el transcurso de la enfermedad,estos adolescentes, así como lomo las personas que les rodean, sufren de forma intensa.
En la infografía puedes ver algunas conductas que pueden alertarte de un trastorno de alimentación, pero ante la más mínima duda pide ayuda a un especialista.
Puedes leer sobre los efectos que causa la exclavitud de la belleza en la salud en el link de la bio.
#Tca #bulimia #anorexia #deteccionprecoz #infografia #elblogdepills #instadocenciasalud #FarmacéuticoconBata
alla banana con topping al cioccolato bianco.
Giro di boa della settimana.
Oggi avremo una conferenza e la presentazione di un lavoro individuale.
Stasera palestra, e poi solo Amore, divano, copertina e Champions ⚽️ ❤️
Feeling sooooo crappy! I have a nasty cold, which makes everything feels ten times worse than usual. I only made things worse when I binged on bread and jam and caramel popcorn. But even though it made me feel terrible, I didn’t purge, so yay me. Things are very hard right now, but since school finishes this week, I hope to see some old friends. It’s just hell to be at home alone while my parents are at work. I really need to work on loving myself if I want to be successful in getting to recovery. I really wish I knew where my mom hid the scale😖
#edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexic #eatingdisorder
The other night, I binged. As I was trying to figure out why the urges were so strong in the moment, it was really hard to pinpoint why I wanted to use my eating disorder. This often frustrates me, because I know that I have to acknowledge that reason and work it out so urges dont happen again. That being said, I only half caved into my ED thoughts, and stopped myself. I was so so worried that this setback would trigger the start of another ED cycle- but I woke up yesterday morning and decided that I was not going to let that happened. I ate my meals. I had some swedish fish. But didnt let myself get back into the cycle that I fear more than anything. And now Im home in the comfort of my bed, with two months of break ahead before going abroad. I want to lose weight more than anything in the world, but Im also so scared that eating healthy while honoring my cravings will still lead to a trigger. Im just at a point in my recovery where I am sick of being this weight, which I know is not my natural weight, and so badly want to feel confident in my body and myself again.
#Day69 #Breakfast #8am
Breakfast was this yummy bowl of porridge which I think is the best way to start your day! 🙌❤🍵
Hey guys so I decided to do a New Theme
1) cause everyone kept saying I was a pro Ana acc
2) Instagram kept giving me all these warning signs and I don’t wanna have another acc deleted.
Cozy..❤️✨ Goodmorning loves and happy Wedensday! ☺️ Breakfast was apple/cinnamon oatmeal with banana, then topped with extra apple, jam, dark chocolate, hazelnuts & almonds 🙏🏼 Such a warmer on those winter days 🌧
Have a lovely day! ❣️
💥Possible trigger alert
When I started this page, my goal was to create a profile where I could begin a journey through fitness in a healthy and appropriate way, while inspiring other women who struggle with self-confidence & eating disorders & life in general, to do the same. As I began writing, I found that my posts were my biggest therapeutic outlet, and I was beginning to release so much stress, anxious thoughts, and negative ed behaviors in an appropriate way. This community became my support group, and I learned quickly, that perhaps my ED was less under control than I thought. I was amazed by the amount of followers I received so quickly. When I was featured on @neda
page for my recovery tattoo, I gained a “fan base” and decided that sharing my successes AND failures could be helpful not only for myself, but for others. I became angry at the amount of diet fads, “skinny” teas and weight loss coaches that started following me & contacting me.. and slowly sunk back into an unhealthy state of mind. I used to scroll through Instagram and other social media apps wishing I looked like the other girls.. girls I could never ever anatomically look like no matter how hard I tried. I started obsessing again and fell back into ED habits of restriction and body checking. I then decided to create a place where, hopefully, a person would scroll by & recognize that I’m real. That I struggle. Some days I don’t get out of bed, some days I’m manic and make terrible decisions. I don’t sit here and write to rack up likes or page follows, in fact, as I’ve posted less “provocative” photos, I’ve lost 7,000+ followers and IDGAF. I’m here for those of you who need it.. I’m here for ME. This outlet has become a safe place for me & I hope it has been one for you, too. I know I’m not alone, and I hope you realize you’re not either. Inbox always open. #everybodyisabikinibody #strongwomen #everybodydeserveslove #eatingdisorderawareness #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #bodypositive #bodypositivity #selflove #selfcare #recover #prorecovery #edrecovery #strongertogether #anorexic #anorexia #anorexiawarrior #warrior