I woke up and the day started off AWESOME, then slowly it has gotten progressively worse. I'm so mad at myself right now, I gotta move to the next level of consciousness AND JUST LET STUFF GO and do ethical #Fibbing
and blatant #Lying
The other day I went to my first Alzheimer's and Dementia meeting hosted by the #AlzheimersAssociation
AND IT TRULY helped me to understand this disease A LOT BETTER. It's VERY humbling and EXTREMELY FRUSTRATING for me knowing that as much as I "try" with my mother THERE IS NO WINNING.
I have to do things;
knowing it's in her best interests,
knowing that it's gonna upset her,
knowing that I'm gonna catch hell for it,
knowing she is gonna forget all about,
knowing that she would do the exact same thing and, knowing what she says or does is NOT personal it's the disease.
She now barely eat dinner unless I'm eating with her, WHICH IS SO UPSETTING.
AND WHAT'S SO IRONIC is I feel the EXACT SAME WAY when I'm talking with friends, family and strangers about #PreparednessAwareness
; THERE IS NO WINNING!
They wouldn't even think about #Preparedness
unless I brought it up in conversation, WHICH IS SO UPSETTING.
What I want for my mom CAN'T HAPPEN!
What I want for my friends, family and our society CAN'T HAPPEN!
I have to learn to let go and just fib to my mom and lie to others, BECAUSE I'm starting to drink too much and stress out man and I know it's become SERIOUSLY unhealthy.
There is so much going on from Patreon to PewDiePie, which is #AnotherOne
of their strategies to OVERWHELM US to the point that we stop speaking up and start falling back AND I'M AFRAID THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT'S GONNA DO FOR A WHILE.
I have to minimize my frustrations and I know what I need to do. It's going to take A LOT OF TIME AND EFFORT and some money, but I cannot put it off ANY LONGER.
This is NOT the end of me posting on here, I'm gonna keep SHARING my PrepperAgenda with everyone, but hold back on the INFORMING until I setup my other account.
BTW: you might see me write #SCW
in a comment it just mean; Serenity, Courage Wisdom.
™ my friends.