Fear is running most of the world ya’ll. It is the root of all illness, most of our systems and structures, it is the result of choices of lack and greed. And that is what is. At the same time, love is always available to us. The stakes may feel heightened right now, but inside fear is always a choice to act differently. Sometimes, we fall into fear based habits, and that is okay. I do not believe extremes are truth. The universe is a forgiving place, I deeply believe this. We can choose fear again and again and still return to love.
Over the last few weeks, I have witnessed so much come up for healing in myself and others, and finally, I can see that there is no thing to fear. There is no thing that can be taken away from us, if we choose not to abandon ourselves and not to abandon love. There is no thing to cling to with needy hands that we think we cannot live without, because we can find strength inside of all of what life has to bring to the table.
Death is certainly not something I fear, besides that I would love to live longer to experience more of the potential and possibility of life. I do not think anyone would want to live if they were not able to see a reason of possibility and joy. Death is the easy escape route. What is more interesting is learning from what comes forward to be conversed with in life.
I’ve cleared out so many fears from my system that were running me in the past, fear of being loved/approved of, fear of abandonment, fear of enoughness/perfection, fear of being seen. Sometimes we choose for even these old fears to re-emerge in our life so that we can heal them at a deeper level than we have before. All of this clearing creates space for bold action in service of love.
And still, more fears remain. More than anything the fear that runs me is that I will not take more risk in living into my deepest soul’s desires of creative freedom that is received in the world on my terms. I practice reframing and releasing fears from my entire system when they come up - not
Hey you, I get it. You are feeling beat up. You want to pursue things that you LOVE like social causes, non-profits, artistic expressions that give back, teaching holistic yoga and bringing creativity and wellness back into the actual possible world and you have TRIED to do so for a while and it hasn’t worked the way you had hoped. You want to care for yourself first and then have time to also be of service from a place of love and compassion. I feel your pain.
Right now a lot of people in my world are going back to other work after being an soulpreneur for a while. They have given it a good go and are turning in their entrepreneur hat and going to work in existing societal structures to pay the bills. Attached to this going back in is sadness, shame, feelings of giving up. Resignation, not good enough, frustration that the world isn’t different already, so much anger and rebellion. Look a little further under that ANGST and there is deep care and love for the state of the world.
OF COURSE you want to create a business and live your life from a place of joy and care and helping and serving what is really out of whack with the way we live in modern day. There is no doubt that you deserve to live with time freedom to take care of your body and enable your family to live thriving lives. And going back in can be a hard blow to the ego because it feels like something is dying - its scary that you may abandon your own needs for self care or not fulfill the mission the way you thought you would.
I am here to tell you that going back to work in a ‘regular’ job is equally important. We have to participate in the real world AND cultivate new ways and it is going to take many generations to do so. We are riding with the ebb and flow of the reality of our times. What matters more is that you hold your sadness and care with great, profound respect and commitment to honoring their messages when you can and how you can. It is my hope is that you do not lose the bigger story, the greater potential for you to keep plugging away and trusting that over time
Have you ever felt a moment when you were inside your story but also outside of it? You participated in the experience and felt the feelings but also observed what it meant for you, the signs and learnings and what it was opening up for you? That is basically how I live every single day of my life. It is fascinating to allow the observer in me to have a larger voice as the days go by. Even when I am triggered and inside of my story, I am also simultaneously outside of it and see why this thing is happening and where it is leading me. Can you relate?
We are not our stories. But the genetic and cultural inertia that runs our lives is powerful. I believe that it is our job to heal wounds of the past ways of being that we inherit from our family and our societal conventions that are no longer serving the world.
It can be very easy to get lost in the pull of the ways you have seen before, the ways you were taught to model. But you always have choice.
Who you spend your time with, what you do with your time, how you receive and spend money and what environments you surround yourself in all contribute to your way of living.
We are a combination of will and external influence. You can wrap all kinds of spiritual language around it but that is essentially what this life is about. The conversation inside of you between what you desire and what the world has in store for you. The dance of exploration, of seeking and feeling how it lands in you when you receive response from the world around you.
Are you blocking the conversation or actively engaging in what is available to you, right before your eyes, right now?
Today magic tickled my soul as I received this super thoughtful gift from my friend Noemi @noemi8fold 💖
My heart is full! I am so grateful to have crossed paths with you in the Newfield Ontological Coaching program and to witness each other and created an opportunity for so much more #magic to unfold through us!
Sometimes we need external reminders that we ARE love. If your soul is tickled to act in service of love and connection, follow the nudge! It leads to more love and connection.
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Yesterday was Friday the 13th. I am not affiliated with a religion or a particular way of spiritual study. But I do honor that designated days of celebration or remembrance in our culture create collective energy around particular topics. Right now, the story I want to share is about misunderstanding of the word Witch and Magic. If you trace the history of the witch she is simply a healer, like any other shaman or doctor, she lived in harmony with nature and was connected to what is possible through listening to what lies beneath the surface of the material world and the mechanized world. People have been punished and even killed throughout human history for simply being willing to leverage the unknown in service of healing the earth. How weird that as a collective we push away and fight what we don’t understand so insistently. And all that we need to do is look at it all, hold it, allow. Stop resisting what simply IS.
Not too long ago, I had a woman that was a Jehovah’s witness that cleaned my house. The trouble was she felt trapped. She saw my own way and empowered joyous children and she wanted to be free from the binds of her life. The problem was, it was her family, her whole world. She had no education and she was terrified of leaving her husband who was controlling and mentally manipulative to the point where she was practically brainwashed. Finally, she got the courage to leave him. She stayed with me for an night, very scared and in a child-like place. I created a safe space for her to feel safe. I lit a candle, played some Enya and put her to bed. She was going to move in with me temporarily with her daughter until she could get on her feet. She was so excited for her new life. She was SO interested in MAGIC, which I openly have integrated into my life, without any stigmas or fears associated with it. What I didn’t realize, was that to her, I was a Witch, and to me that is simply an embodiment of magic and possibility. For her, even in modern day, I was something to fear. She had be trained to fear magic. And magic is possibility, vastness and the power to create our own life in harmony with the universe and in conversation with soul and spirit. Magic
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There are so many pieces of our BIGNESS floating off in the ethers, rejected, compartmentalized, repressed, censored. That is why I am loving playing into my edges more publicly with Dress Up Parties!
Over in my Cultivating Edges for Creatives and Empaths FB Tribe, we have a short and sweet FB LIVE every Saturday at 9 AM to get the weekend off to a bang with a #DRESSUPPARTY !
Feel free to bop in LIVE with your own playful DRESS UP in "REAL" clothing or COSTUME and you'll see prompts posted for you to share your PICS every week! What piece of you is missing or needs re-activated that wants to come out and play?! <3 See you there
Or find the link in my LinkTree links in my profile!
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I do not believe in evil. I do believe everything has something to teach us. I do believe that toxins pollute the earth and we are of the earth and detoxing is a daily job. I use dress up and play to help@activate and integrate missing pieces of my soul - so I can hold all of me. In doing so I practice holding all of the world, too. Whatever infuriates our hearts is an injury coming up for healing. Hidden beneath it is gems of wisdom and inspired action out of deep love.
This morning I woke up dreaming of turtles with straws in their noses. I got so angry that somehow I needed to solve that by not using straws. If you multiple that story it would be easy to live in paralysis of all the choices one could make to improve the world. I talked my frustration out. I journaled and allowed it. Under it is a deep pain that I am the earth and the earth is and has been sick for so long.
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Less than a year ago, as a #highlysensitive person, I still had a habit of adopting most of the external stuff that people or the world threw at me. I did not do it consciously, it just went into my being and warped my sense of self.
Now, I am able to be an empathetic person and allow for the #interconnection of all things and also clear and release from my system that which I do not want to let in.
I can choose to no longer “go under” with the emotional stress and heaviness of the world around me. I also at times choose to let it crack me open.
The question of what is mine and what is yours is true on one level and a complete and utter lie on another. We inherited this Earth as it is today with the extremes and complexities and impossibility of living a truly eco conscious, “perfect” way, whatever that is. Just by the virtue of participating in society we participate in this imperfect world.
Whenever I find myself frustrated or upset, I do a detox. This is a daily practice if not multiple times a day. An emotional, physical, spiritual, symbolic detox that suits my unique way of being. I listen to what is there, the toxins work their way out of me and I feel light and whole again. And the process of this type of holistic detox allows me to show up able to hold more and be more open to LIFE.
Our emotions, our ailments, it is all juicy content for exploration - what is beneath that? What is it teaching me?! ___________________________________________________
My soul’s deeper truth is softness. When I return to that I know I am home.
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What are the necessary steps to realize your BIG creative dreams?
I love this question because creativity is not linear! We so desperately want to know what the steps are to close the gap between our desires and our future. But that is not how the windy path of life works.
If you’ve done the work/play to honing in on your big creative desires for your life, CONGRATULATIONS! That alone is more than most people aspire to step into. (I’ll be writing a separate post about what to do when you don’t know what your BIG creative dreams even are).
Once you have narrowed in on your North Star, shooting for the moon of what might be possible for you, it can often feel daunting to begin. We want things to be mapped out and obvious, we want promise of success. We want to know that the effort is worth the risk. So what is required to take massive inspired action?
What I have found is necessary, in no particular linear order is:
1. Unwavering Commitment: Commit to your dreams 100% and cultivate self trust that you are the right person to bring them into reality. Commit to your own self care, detox your body, choose love instead of fear, and get clear on your priorities daily, return to self care when you over give. Commitment often has an inner rebel that takes you back a few steps once you declare it. Do not commit in extremes - allow space for your humanity. For example, I recently committed to reducing my sugar intake - key word REDUCE, not eliminate.
2. Business-ifying: Treat your creative project like a business, you are a Startup Founder for your Creative Project [Insert Name]. It needs funding, resources, support, awareness, legal considerations, the works. You can co-partner or not, but either way you’ll have to be able to switch between the inspired creative vision and the practical existing business necessities (I had a lot of resistance to this one for most of my life because it can be difficult to marry soul art with money)
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Most greatness starts with simple, pen and paper sketching. I learned this early on as a UX designer. Today I am sketching out the storyboard for a promo video to raise funding for my #animatedfilm . The process of sketching it out allowed me to better understand who I need to partner with, next steps for research and ask big questions that I would have otherwise not pulled out of the ethers as easily. Start with a sketch, creativity flows with beginning.
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Shout out to the amazing creatives practicing for 100 days in the 100 Day Project. I’m always humbled and awed by the dedication of artists, the passion and patience behind #mastery , and my personal commitments to #slowgrowth through dedication. For my 100 day’s I am cultivating my #animatedfilm project. It takes some serious magic for me to stay the course with the big vision I have for it, and the learning curve ahead of me. I am learning #DAZ studio. I’m character developing. I’m story boarding and then throwing my hands up in frustration. I’m returning the wrong purchases and allowing space for being a #beginner . It’s gonna be a epic journey! Eek!
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Play Your Way to CREATIVE FREEDOM with Fantastical U Immersion:⠀
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Reminiscing 💗 What are your fears? How do they make you feel? What do you do about them? •
Fear shows up in my life often. with my art. with money. with work. with relationships. with just about everything. BUT there is one question I ask myself every time fear shows up, and it always seems to show me the light.
What would you do if you weren't afraid?
Photography is and always will be a passion of mine that unfortunately I don’t do anymore.
These photos are from years ago of my Painting to Photo series. A few years ago two of my cameras were stolen and although I was fortunate to get another one. It just wasn’t the same after that. My main focus was teaching and painting and now my main focus are is my art practice. 2018 is going to be big and I cant wait to share what is to come but for now 👩🏻🎨😉🤫 #artistonamission#arte#art#losangeles#whittier#Downey#photographs “When words become unclear, I shall focus with photographs. When images become inadequate, I shall be content with silence.”
— Ansel Adams
"We have to remind ourselves constantly that we are not saviors. We are simply a tiny sign among thousands of others that love is possible, that the world is not condemned to a struggle between oppressors and the oppressed, that class and racial warfare is not inevitable. I cling to the reality that I only need to do one small thing and hope others are encouraged by our example."
February book: Meaningful Work
A Quest To Do Great Business, Find Your Calling, and Feed Your Soul
Written by Shawn Askinosie .
This section of my audio book jumped out at me (and I replayed it at least a dozen times) because it spoke to me! To my heart! THIS IS WHY I MADE THESE DECALS. When this Peace image came to me, I started to spin with all the potential good that could be done to promote people, unity and peace! In our city 🚗...our state 👊🏼...across all the states!! 👍🏼The world! 😳🌍😆🙌🏼 I admit, I wanted to use it as a cultural bandaid! With enough people proclaiming peace and unity, I imagined it could heal the wounds of the past by pressing forward together! Well, putting all my foolish optimism aside for a moment I recognize that my decal design may not be omnipotent...🤔😒...but I am still proud JUST to be shining my little light, making my little sign, doing my small thing and hoping that it encourages others to do their little part too. This book freed me up from having to be the savior and empowered me to do my part! Over and over, with quality and intention. .