Flew back to LA. Started a contract job at ATTN:. Immediately taught myself @reactjs
and a bunch of other things that are a lot of a lot. Designed an app that lets political candidates match with users like tinder. Deleted every picture off my phone and died. Got them back but they're unorganized. Fail. Went to work holiday party/karaoke and sang Fall Out Boy, per usual. Went to @mammothmountain
and almost fell off a cliff. Flew back to MKE for Christmas. Got botox for the first time and had a panic attack. Was scared to look in the mirror. Binge watched shows with mom. Tried relating to my 13 year old half brother and failed. Finally looked in the mirror. I looked the same. Met my biological grandpa for the first time at the casino. Flew back to LA. Got manis/pedis and bought at home facials for NYE. Ate like a king, danced with a bottle of wine in the living room, and played @overcookedgame
as 2019 rolled in. Rode bikes in Venice on the 1st. Began to feel like I lost myself and my purpose. Disassociated from most things around me. Decided I wanted to help influencers build websites, so. I began building a website. Went to Soho House for the first time 💁♀️ made a new friend and frolicked throughout LA with her. Did a "Yoga for Hangovers" video: to be edited. Went bowling and got a new record of 136. Played in a super smash brothers tournament. Won one round. Began another freelancing gig. Realized i have a fear of being sexy. Debating on starting an IG where I overcome it. Bless my soul. Terrified. Feeling more grounded hence finally my video post 😊
Yes its January, but now is a better time than never. I was being hard on myself for the editing when I realized I just needed to hit post and hope for the most. Obvs swipe for full video.
Shoutout to @oktoberfestdtla
for making dreams happen 🍻