I would wait maybe,
Or just come and hug you
Memories and warmth that
You gifted me would remain
Unaltered, they will cause pain,
They will make ne lose sleep but
Still I would clutch them as tightly I clutch
That cushion while lying on bed hopelessly,
With dried tears and ticking wall clock.
I try to turn my back to all those things
That remind me of you.
But still you surface in my mind quite often.
I want to let you hurt me again cause staying away hurts me more, but still with a belief in my mind
And the tiniest of self respect that I'm left with I gather it all and use them to keep that distance alive.
I yearn for you , your voice and those countless songs that you used to sing in my praise.
But the zillion times that you haunted me with heavy expectations, weird insecurities are stronger.
Stronger to make me believe that even when everyone told me no one could love me as much as you do, I would reply no one had hurt me as much as you did with shiver in my voice.
I gave you every piece of me, all that love and all that care that ever was in my capability, and that's where I went wrong, you took it all as your long lost asset that you kept with me for years and now own it with much ease.
Still when I close my eyes it's you and just you who comes to my mind.
I could be tricked with closed eyes but when I open them , I exactly know who deserves my unconditional love, selfless care and eternal believe , she smiles with all her strength and the mirror breathes a sigh of relief to see that sight, after a long long time.
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