Just finished another trip around the sun (35!) and I’ve been doing some reflection. Are you and your life different than planned? When I was younger I had a simple plan. I was going to get married young and be mom to lots of babies. I was going to be likable, unobtrusive, sweet, and beautiful. But I didn’t get married super young. Having any babies at all was a miracle. And even when I got those miracle babies, I had all these dreams and ambitions springing up inside of me that I couldn’t quiet down. Not only was life different than planned, but I, myself, couldn’t seem to be who I thought I “should” be! I am talkative, passionate, funny, ambitious, anxious, tender, and at times, awkward. I can be “too much” sometimes. For a long while, I felt a lot of shame about all of this. I couldn’t fit into that “perfect woman” box. It’s taking time, but I’m shedding those limiting ideas. “Shoulds” are no good! They keep you from loving what is. My actual life is beautiful. I want good things and can trust myself, even if I and my life look different than I had planned. I am exactly where and who I’m supposed to be. And you know what? So are you!
What if you let go of all the “shoulds” and just trusted yourself and God’s plan for you instead? Sounds like freedom to me.