You’re not beautiful and that’s perfect.
You just are.... Who gets to decide how we define beauty
I don’t have to be raw for you to see how ugly it was when
A man forced his fingers into me.
My strength my survival isn’t beautiful, or something to inspire
It is the very thing that put out my fire
My ability to adapt and disappear isn’t for your approval or awe
My disassociation is for me to escape and hang out on the wall.
My story is mine for me alone If I decide not for the choir, as it’s my decision to allow when you get to play in my fire.
My trauma doesn’t have to be meant to teach others how strong to be
Trauma is something I endured while they raped me.
Trauma is beautiful? I am beautiful because of my struggles? Who gets to say so
Tabloids and social media? , society offering shallow validation oppressing and once again here we go.
I don’t need you’re eyeS and opinions to make my story matter in fact what I’ve been through is ugly and i don’t need to be praised in an attempt to help me adapt.
Why do I feel this heavy responsibility to be beautiful from my face to my body to my scars and my always anxious worry
It should be okay to be struggling with having shadows that aren’t fucking pretty.
They are parts of me that I don’t care you don’t like to see.
Crying at home and needing help is fucking okay for Godsake it’s where I play.
I sit with myself in the dark and am aware that on the daily there’s depression at bay.
Who gets to tell me that when I admit I don’t want to live that there’s beauty in thAt. Wtf do you mean I’m beautiful because of that.
I don’t need to be your beautiful
I am who I am and that’s that. I’m not a title or a category of woman. I’m no beautiful demonstration of a human who survived for your beauty defining recognition.
I can not be okay with my skin and my weight
There’s no inner work that needs to be and I don’t have to wait
I can be what “we” define as ugly and still love me. Stop pushing this pressure of you’re beautiful just to be comfortable in my company. . I am just me in all that I am. Simple as that I am Sat nam!
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