What an incredible blessing to be visited by @aylanereo
on our beloved shores!! Here she is playing a divine concert in Dartington Hall on Saturday, and this evening I was blessed to attend a voice and songwriting workshop in my current home town of Glastonbury. It feels quite vulnerable to admit this but the weirdest thing is that Ayla Nereo really reminds me of me!! I fear it sounds arrogant to say that considering how highly I rate her! But it struck me even more to attend her workshop and hear that her way of creating is almost identical to mine, and the way she teaches so similar... I really feel she's a kindred spirit with a similar role in this lifetime, like we're bringing through a lot of the same frequencies in our music and general essence. I feel a bit embarrassed that I probably gave her slightly desperate groupie vibes!! It brought up a lot of stuff for me actually, things that are difficult to express in writing here. .
It brought me face to face with my sense of failure and not being enough, feeling left out because I wasn't a support act, feeling like I haven't tried hard enough or something, I felt afraid of going to her workshop as another workshop facilitator as if it somehow made me a fraud to go to develop as a facilitator more than to connect with my own voice and creativity (which in truth are fairly free although there's always more to unlock!). All these crazy voices in my head - who knew her presence here would bring up so much for me?! I thought it would be simple pure joy but actually I had to stay really present with myself and watch a lot of difficult thoughts and emotions arise. Luckily we were doing lots of sounding and singing and that is my favourite way to work through what I'm feeling! 😉
On Saturday, she played a song I hadn't heard before and said she received it years ago on a beach praying for guidance and direction how best to serve in this life. That really touched me as I feel I'm deeply in that place in my life right now, and it felt like a beacon of hope. In so many ways I feel lost, even though at the same time I know myself better than I ever have. I am so connected to my heart, (continued in comments)...