Okay guys I think I’m like going through a midlife crisis at 18 or something like that😱 I just don’t know what I want to do with my life. Right now I’m in my first semester of college and I can already tell this isn’t what I wanna do for 4-6 years of my life. At least the traditional living at college and taking a full load of classes each semester. And I told one of my friends this and she’s like well you just should wait til next year and it should get better and you’ll be less stressed and whatnot. And she’s definitely one of those people who want to follow the norm of going to college and everything so of course she tells me to just keep going with it and everything will get better next year. Nothings really wrong tho. Like I love my college and I love my 2 good friends that I’ve made here. I just don’t feel like it’s right for me. Like yea I’m happy but I don’t feel like I’m as happy as I usually am and I just don’t think this is what I’m meant to be doing rn. But the thing is is that I don’t really know what else I wanna be doing. I was thinking about maybe like just trying to get a full time (good paying, hopefully) job so that I can save money and then maybe taking a few classes each semester at a local college. I do wanna still learn and stuff but I just don’t think this whole traditional college thing is for me. I also don’t know if I wanna try to get through the second semester in the spring here at college or if I wanna just try to follow through with that plan I said as soon as this semester is over. Idk if I can get through another semester and even if I do stay I just feel like I’m not gonna be happy with that decision. I’m just a little scared of what everyone else is gonna think of that decision but honestly why should I care. It’s my life and I wanna live how I wanna live.