Long post warning ☺
Sometimes, when you feel stuck and that negative part of your brain says all kinds of awful things to you, it can help to look back. Plus I'm almost to the end of my workout notebook, the one I started when I started actual strength training (vs just working out with weights) and wanted to powerlift. In the past 2+ years there have been injuries - such as my shoulder which meant no bench or OHP for several months. Time off because of life, or depression, or just being a lazy asshole. There have been struggles with lifts just falling apart, I've had to swallow my pride and back off training numbers to fix problems before I could move forward again. Building strength is not a straight upward line, there are dips, bumps, flat lines, etc. Do I wish I was further along? OF COURSE. Are there times that I fail and mentally yell at myself because I "should" be able to lift that? OF COURSE. But, I'm also proud of myself, or at least working on being proud, it's hard for me, of what I've accomplished so far.
It's easy to be hard on yourself, be negative and say you're weak, you aren't getting anywhere. This is, unfortunately, a slow process. It's easy to compare yourself to others, try not to, we're all on a similar but different path, battling against ourselves (and gravity 😉). Work on your numbers, support others, support yourself, just keep moving, working, & training.
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