At the beginning of the year I took somewhat of a cross country journey to ground myself before another year started. 2018 felt tumultuous in so many ways and mentally, I was drowning. I knew if I didn’t take the time to take a deep breath and get back to myself, that 2019 would be a frenzy of chaos. Since that trip, honestly there’s been change, but more than change, there’s just been rediscovery and a depth I’ve been missing for so long. I joined this online community after listening to @theliturgists
podcast and I feel so seen. Essentially it’s a beautiful group of people, all navigating the world of deconstructing the faith we had for so long and reconstructing in a new way, a way that we can feel seen and feel confident in. So many might put up walls and be defensive or even concerned on my behalf, but honestly I’m in the most “connected to the divine” place I’ve ever been in my life. My sobriety has brought me so much clarity, my daughter shows me the divine every single day, and I have never felt more secure in my own strengths and driven to confront my weakness than any point in my past. I have a job where I feel fulfilled and like I’m finally tapping into my abundance of creativity and abilities to connect to people. I’m not anxious about tomorrow. I’m excited about the adventures that are ahead for me and my girl. I was always afraid of living life without it looking like it’s “supposed to”...Nuclear family, doting husband, manicured lawn, coordinating outfits in the pews on Sunday morning. My life has been unconventional but it’s been filled with more beauty than I could have ever dreamed of. I’m here to embrace whatever comes next.