When I found out about Zen's heart it was pure devastation. My heart shattered into a million pieces as i experienced one of the biggest heart breaks of my entire life. I know some peeps think it's just a dog, and I'm sorry they haven't had this experience of love and connection as they are truly missing out.
I've lost pets before-it's always tragic and never easy. But this felt new.
Most of you know Zen's story. She had a rough route and it took a lot to get to the dog I always knew was there. I remember telling Sander the first time I brought her home and she dove into the fridge and moved anything that wasn't attached to the floor and ran and ran and ran and jumped on us over and over and over and destroyed everything she could grab, "I know there's a really, really amazing dog in there." And dammit was I right.
When I first learned of her DCM I was also pissed. How unfair is it to her, she's already had a disturbing beginning and now she can't even have a full life?
The truth is Zen and I are even closer now than before. She's somehow continued to teach me beyond words and beyond what most would think a dog had to offer. I have a new perception of her energy and we understand each other even more. Really she's made me understand myself even more.
And who am I to judge what is a full life? Maybe it's teaching me all that she has, or receiving the deepest well of love, or being given a chance, or proving her naysayers wrong...I'm still upset that this is her case, and I wish it weren't true, but Zen is no ordinary dog so how could I expect her heart to be any different.
She's my best friend and I am so lucky I know her.
This is from last weekend-she enjoys the views too 🖤