I revisited this piece for the first time in a month last night. I started it in March & have felt practically unable to finish it throughout the entirety of the time that i have been working on it. This piece has required more emotional energy from me than any other I have created in the past. It is what I have grown to be most proud of & also the most frustrated with. My desire to create the most beautiful thing I could, in order to do justice to our angel compelled me to take long, drawn out breaks from working on her. This is something that I rarely do with pieces I am working on. Despite my frustrations with myself for needing time away from it on occasion, I am proud of myself for honoring what has been necessary for me to give her all that I can.
I’m telling myself that she has wanted to teach me to take my time & not rush through the process of creating.