So this is me now (and ➡️ is me a year ago). I wasn’t going to post this video. There is a reason why I haven’t posted much/any new stuff for a while. I’m just not happy with my body, my strength and flexibility. This is no drama gig, I know I’m not overweight and I can imagine some people wishing to be in a shape like this. But be careful what you wish for... It’s been a while now I’ve felt I wasn’t making any progress, I was putting so much hard work in without seeing any results and only to collapse with another injury or coma-like fatigue. I blamed it on stress, relocation, work and all. But other disturbing symptoms made me go to a doctor. Now I know that I haven’t failed my body. It’s my body that had failed me (through some of my unconscious actions admittedly). And it’s a relief because now I know I can fix this. It’s actually so painful to hear people say that someone has achieved something through their hard work, because it makes you feel like you have clearly not put enough work in. But sometimes it is luck. And if you weren’t lucky like me, you might be putting work in for nothing. I wanted to keep this to myself, because I don’t like feeling pity for myself and it is a medical detail after all that I need not to brag about, but today apparently is the world’s #thyroid
day and I would like to raise awareness of a syndrome called #hashimotosdisease
which is an #autoimmune
disease causing you to put on weight, weakening your muscles, causing extreme fatigue, anxiety, even depression etc. It’s genetically conditioned and it’s for life 😢. I thought that I was healthy and sporty and in good health but I wasn’t. And the more I was pushing myself, the more my body resisted. I was angry and ashamed, but THIS video- NOW I am PROUD of it! It had taken so much more hard work to maintain at least this body and at least this strength than it took to get to the shape I was in before my symptoms started. Please, listen to your body. Don’t abuse it. Don’t think you hold all the cards. Stay safe.
P.S. I’m okay. You don’t die of this shit 😜. And I will not give in and I will not give up on myself. I’m more informed and aware of my body. #warrior