Convo with my bro this morning:
C: “I love that you've grown comfortable being in photos. It's nice to be able to take pictures with you again. And you look awesome and healthy.”
Me: “Oh Im not comfortable in photos! Just trying to practice what I preach. But thank you!”
C: “Well you look fantastic.”
It takes a village to undo years of fucked up body issues. A lot of the work, I’ve found, has to be done alone because the world will always be judgmental and opinionated and run by capitalism and doctors on the payroll and clothing companies and diet culture. Tuning all that shit out and listening to our own bodies and rhythms can be super difficult. Especially during the season of skin! As a kid, I would have been naked 24/7 if allowed. Then my neighbor laughed at me when I started getting stretch marks. I was 14. Several years ago, I decided that a body like mine didn’t belong in a bikini. That no one wanted to be subjected to that. So I bought a modest one-piece black, tummy-flattening boob-boosting suit. And never felt more self conscious in my entire life than I did in that suit. Two years ago I said fuck it. Inspired by my loves @nolatrees
and many other babes out there being their beautiful selves, I put my scars and stretch marks and rolls and bumps back into a bikini and never looked back. So liberating! And comfortable! And there is nothing like the feeling of sun on your skin 🤗 .
This pic is from yesterday. I spent the entire day with my village; family and friends who’ve seen me through the best and worst of times, on the lake, on the boat, in the water. I did not think about my body even once - just enjoyed the day. Swam, sunned, fell off a giant inflatable rainbow unicorn at least three times, and TOOK PICTURES. WITH ME IN THEM. This is my favorite. And my bro is the bomb for supporting me and letting me know he sees me. Love you @corbin.bell
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