Before I excitedly dove into my leftover meatballs from my birthday dinner at @louisristoranteandbar
, I had a “moment.”
You know, when you’re stopped in your tracks and the world just stops for what seems like forever (kinda like when Anton Ego takes his first bite of Ratatouille on the movie ‘Ratatouille’ 🐀👨🏽🍳).
I looked at that meatball and realized how far I’ve come in life... how far God has brought me.
So many of you don’t know my story (which by the way, it’s posted on my blog on site in bio ☝🏽) but it is one of total despair turned to victory.
I was at death’s door while I battled severe anorexia. I hated myself, was so humiliated (who graduates with a culinary degree while living in fear of food?! 🤦🏼♀️), was crippled with fear and anxiety, felt completely hopeless and alone and experienced a depression that encouraged thoughts of suicide. It was a bad few years.
I remember pretending and being so fake. I wanted so bad to go back to who I used to be but always found myself doing what I DIDN’T want to do. I was sneaky and deceptive; I “tricked” my therapists and doctors; I hurt my family. 🙍🏼♀️
I dreaded birthday dinners because I couldn’t find one “clean” thing on the menu... the day to celebrate ME was so awkward and so sad.
I have such amazing gifts yet I thought protein, fat and carbs were bad. I thought exercise was only to burn as much as possible. Somewhere along the way, my passion for health became skewed, warped and completely backwards.
I didn’t know ANYTHING about what it was to be healthy.
After so many amazing divine interventions, love from those nearest me, healing and TRUTH, God shower me how free I truly was. Not because of what I had done, but because of what HE had done for me... I just needed to receive that gift of life and life ABUNDANT.
So as I snapped this picture of my scrumptious meatball, I realize it’s another act of worship to my King: the Cross has the final word- not the enemy. I eat and live to bring glory to God... and in that process, He delights when I enjoy His gifts. I choose to eat foods that nourish and heal because after all, life is s gift and we only get one body.
#freedom #hope #joy #life