The past few days have been a whirlwind of emotions. Moments of bliss and joy and so much appreciation that I’m moved to tears. In the same day I’ll feel these intense feelings of anger, criticism towards myself and others, and fear.
This dualism is new and unfamiliar to me, like now I’m aware of bad habits & tendencies I didn’t notice before, & it bugs me. I’ve been wrestling with this trying to figure it out, then yesterday it kinda just clicked. It’s my Higher Self telling me to step my game up & elevate. Elevate my mindset. Elevate my behavior. Elevate my connection to Source. Elevate my levels of appreciation for how much I’m I’ve been blessed with. Elevate my soul & allow my spirit to lead and put my gotdamn ego in check.
With everything going on in the cosmos it makes sense why this is all happening now. Why this calling is so strong. Why I’m being called to look inward and spend more time alone. I know this is required in order for me to grow and evolve, & I’m realizing that I’ve grown a bit stagnant. I’ve put so much energy into my family (rightfully so 🙏🏻❤️)and my nutrition and fitness, that my mindfulness practice has taken a back seat, so it’s calling me back now.
I believe that most people have four legs to their chair of life. Each leg represents a core value or priority to them. For example, mine are Family, Health (mind body spirit), Money, & Friendships. It’s impossible to give equal energy to all four legs at all times for extended periods of time, & that’s okay! Sometimes family and friends will require more of your energy so health and career might have to take a backseat for a while. Then when things are rolling again on the family/friend front you can shift your energy back to health and career again.
Knowing that this shift in energies and priorities is a healthy necessary process is key in order to be content and in balance. That way you don’t lose your shit if you didn’t make it to the gym today or if you had to call in sick to take your son to the doctors. Now that my pillars of balance have shifted I’m excited to tip more energy back into my health & personal growth & see where it leads me
What are your 4 priority pillars?
Rasakan menjadi ibu. Rasakan menjadi bagian dr kesempurnaan wanita. Dan rasakan menjadi bagian dari surga Tuhan. Kalau bunda yang lain bisa punya anak, kenapa BUNDA TIDAK? Memang semua adalah kuasa Tuhan, tapi jika bunda tetap berusaha, maka percayalah, pasti Tuhan akan memberikannya.
آمِيّنْ... آمِيّنْ... يَ رَ بَّلْ عَلَمِيّ.
This little man is the reason for my being! The apple of my eye and my pride and joy! We’ve had a long road to get him back into the light. I have faith that he will follow well on his journey into manhood! #fatherson #sunset #lifeinthelight #stayinthefight
Nick and Tyler went fishing this afternoon. They didn’t catch anything but sometimes it’s more about the quality time spent together. #Fishing #FatherSon #QualityTime
I know I’ve been posting about leadership a lot. It’s really fun for me and I hope it’s something that helps those that are in my circle.
Here’s the thing: almost ALL of it has been from watching my dad walk it out. His hard work, tender heart and thick skin has constantly encouraged me and challenged me to be a better man!
Thanks dad! ✊🏼
Taking life too seriously is a recipe for unhappiness. The more you invest in all your personal dramas and your inflated sense of self-importance, the storm that rotates around the center of I, I, I, me, me, mine mine the more miserable and isolated you become.
Drop the excessive selfish though, even for a moment and you open your mind to the possibility of spontaneous joy. In doing so you reconnect with you deeper nature and shed some of the baggage of the small tragic self.
One of the reasons why my marriage failed is I gave too many fucks about everything. I took everything way too seriously and I never took the time to appreciate the small simple things that made can make me happy. I always focused internally on the things that I needed more of or the things I didn’t already have. .
However all it takes is a shift of perspective to see the light in everything. .
So hey, if you read this, fucking smile. Try it even if you have to force it. I’ll fucking guarantee you it’ll lighten your day. 👍
Today was the day my family became whole! My husband adopted Henry! Smith Family Party of Three Forever! Love my family. Thanks to @alarunnergirl
for your kind heart and being our attorney during this wonderful process! Thank you to our friend Jennifer for taking these wonderful photos! And last but not least thank you to my husband @dougsmith338
for being the best father for our son! #family #adoption #fatherson #love #smithfamily
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