Honestly, I don't want to change my past...
There were times where I was still haunted by regret, guilts, anger, past mistakes, past actions, what I did and what others did.
But I don't want to change my past, because of them, I met a different kind of people who gave me lessons, new experiences, memories, third eye to see through black, white and colours of people's mind... My treasures.
Now, I no longer feel haunted but rather blessed and the warmth of those treasures are kept safe inside of me.
People come and go, time never stops running. For that reason, I am taught to never stop growing and learning something new every second. That sometimes I need to be rational and logical too.
I made the decisions for my past and I shall accept any responsibility comes with it. I don't want to change my past which may stop me from meeting those people I treasure, and I couldn't evolve into who I am now.
I may not the best person, or the best memories you all have ever had, but thank you for giving me a chance to be the part of your life journey, and thank you for being a part of mine too. You are precious. We are fine.
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