I want to talk about something important.
Something that I think applies to Many of us, males, females, no matter at what stage you are in your journey – because I know for a fact that others have struggled with the same thing I did before I finally decided to cut it out of my life.
At the picture, I was at my lowest weight to date. A weight that feels like it belongs in a galaxy far, far away because I have never seen it again 🚀😂
But even though I was probably at my fittest, I was riddled with self-hate. Why? Because I had filled my social media feeds with fitness influencers with, to me, perfect bodies, perfect boob-to-waist-to ass ratios, perfect nutrition, perfect lives, the epitome of attractiveness – and I didn’t look like them.
I had chosen to follow these accounts for motivation, but they started to serve the opposite purpose and instead fuelled negative self-talk and insecurity. Because of this, I couldn’t take pride in the amazing work I had put in or appreciate the body I was living in. All I saw in the mirror was this fat, disgusting blob that desperately needed to lose more weight (and cosmetic surgery).
I felt like a failure.
And eventually I stopped. I stopped eating well. I stopped going to the gym. Instead, I started gorging on food, because – why would I even bother dieting when I would never look like them? All these behaviours took me further away from my goals and shaped into a vicious cycle of binging and gaining weight.
All the micro-moments I spent scrolling through my these ‘perfect’ bodies created a constant sub-conscious feed to my brain that I wasn’t good enough. The consistent exposure to these accounts were doing more harm than good.
You can discuss all you want whether this is society's fault and blah blah.. but at the end of the day, the decision is in your hands. I decided to unfollow them all and replaced them with accounts that gave me the tools and information I needed to pursue my goals (hehe omg hi @syattfitness
). For the ones I still want to support, I mute their accounts.
Out of sight, out of mind and I have never felt better.