Do you ever have a sit down with yourself and really take inventory of your life, your progression or lack thereof? Do you ever feel like you could DO Better?! I’m having one of those “sit down with selfie” kind of days...I’ve been working so hard that I’m knocking myself out of balance. So I decided to let go and play last night. I went to @andycoeband
and had a really great time! They are such s high vibration band. Music is truly Medicine. But, we said we were only going for 1st set and ended up staying for the whole show cuz it was SO good. I justified it bc I felt like I needed to cut loose a little. I don’t regret that except today I feel guilty. I’m tired and hungover and I’m having anxiety like I did something wrong. I’m mad at myself today bc im having a hard time getting through my shift. I’m fully booked with massages and all I can think about is eating greasy food, lol. I think it’s super important not to beat ourselves up and harvest guilt but I’m finding that hard to do today. I feel like I can do better. I know that sounds silly, it’s not like a BIG deal, but for some reason after all the hard work I do and effort I put into being a better version of myself, I don’t feel good about my choices last night. It’s weird. I’m trying to let it go and create some boundaries for myself with work, with life, with fun, etc. it’s important to be honest with ourselves and check in. Can I do better tomorrow? Yes. So that’s what I’m going to do! Does it need to be so extreme as saying “I’m never drinking again”, or “going out on a school night”? No. Why is that so hard for me? Balance is kind of a fun journey. It’s a constant practice and it’s really important that we let life take its course and then tune in to see what’s working and what’s not working. Did those decisions get me closer to my goals? Nope. So, today I will make better decisions. And tomorrow, well, it’s not here yet so I’ll focus on being present and letting go of what I can’t control, and taking ownership of what I can.