! Sometimes I need a reminder & this one came in perfect timing. .
is normal. I'm not insane, my feelings are valid, my decisions, thoughts, feelings & emotions do matter & hold value. Not because anyone else says they do, but because I believe in myself. I'm working to train myself to listen to my spirit, my true self, over my flesh & the world. No one can make me feel or act a certain way & I'm in control of how I react (respond to action).
Sense of abandonment, fear of rejection or failure can often bring on emotional doubt for me, placing too much of my value in the control of others. I've struggled with decision making & doubting myself since childhood. In big important decisions & every day mundane ones, even long after I've made them, causing #anxiety
for me. From a choice in spouse, to texts, to what i'm going to wear. I over consider, re-consider & then re-re-consider. .
I second guess myself because I'm still learning who I am, what my standards are & what I truly value. My subconscious was never taught these attributes, so I'm slowly doing my best at retraining it now & that's ok.
The best way to support me in my doubt is to validate my feelings, provide evidence to reassure me that I'm capable of making the best decision for myself, help remind me of who I am when I forget, encourage me & compliment me to keep my spirits up. Care, loving accountability & prayer are key too!
Absolute certainty & perfection are unreasonable expectations, failure is inevitable. In order to be response-able (responsible) in my decision making, I have to define what type of energy I desire to be surrounded by, but enjoy the beauty of each imperfection & learn to find contentment in reasonable certainty. .
I commit to having faith in myself & the spirit that lives in me, that I know who I am & what is best for me better than others. When faced with difficult decisions, I may have lingering doubts, but the faith I have wins & determines my behavior & I rejoice, rest & have peace in that. .
#decisions #decisionsdecisions #staytrue #staywoke #stayfocused #dontgiveup #fomo #emotionalabuse #codependency #workinprogress