It's a little known fact, but I have an obsession with #vintagecameras
. I love the history behind them, the memories they captured, and the different styles.
This little @kodak
was picked up at a thrift shop for less than $5. It's a 1975/76 Instamatic X35-f, but it's not the oldest one I have 😁📷
Do you have an obsession over anything?
Things are slowly settling down around here, at least when it comes to unpacking, setting up the new house, and exploring the area. I'm trying to make a concerted effort to pull out my real camera and #getbehindthelens
again. I love how direct the eye contact is from both my girls, but I wish that M was wearing a shirt without words, and that the bright red water blaster wasn't right next to her head--but that's life and nothing is perfect. By the time I moved the water blaster and got in closer, Sawyer was completely done with the camera, crying and trying to roll away 🤷🏼♀️. #illtakewhaticanget
I love being a mom. But, sometimes, I second guess my ability to raise good, grounded, respectful, hard working, compassionate, kind little people.
Motherhood is profound and amazing and life-changing. It’s also really fucking hard. And we knew that going in. We knew we wouldn’t sleep much. We knew spit-up and other gross bodily fluids would be involved. What we weren’t as prepared for is the boredom, the stress, the nagging dissatisfaction, the noise, children with physical, and mental challenges, and the sense of personal failure that (we) feel when second guessing our role as a mom, and that maybe we weren't meant to do this. Then there’s the guilt and shame that come from thinking this way in the first place. Sometimes, “hard” doesn’t even come close to describing it.
However that sweet little voice whispering I LOVE YOU before bed, the hug that lasts longer then any other hug ever. Waking up to that innocent beautiful person/s, moulded so perfectly into you (like it was meant to be). The hundred war wounds you heal with a kiss, Magical boobs that can calm a baby in almost any situation, the feeling of the strongest connection you'll ever have in your whole existence on earth, and beyond.
All the noise, and chaos seem to disappear in those moments, and that's when your heart knows that being a Mother, is exactly what you are meant to be.
I am so grateful for this journey, the good, bad, the ugly its all simply amazingly beautiful.
Happy Mother's Day to every mama out there, to every dad who is mom also, to step moms, mother in laws, to moms who have lost children, and children who have lost moms. Everyone who's plays a roll in motherhood, today is a celebration for you!
Soak your day up with your littles, reminisce, and be grateful that we have the hardest job on this planet, but easily the most rewarding one ❤️❤️