Christopher Robin movie; climate change/cycles of abuse and oppression; the probability of Liam's birth/parallel universes
I once swam across the ocean.
Every stroke matched my breath, every breath kept in tune with a memory. If we didn't struggle in the journey, could we claim to be alive? Would we know?
It's how I gasp for the surface that reminds me, the pain and loss and grief of what my lungs expel. I am frozen underneath, a cocoon of hardened hearts and suppressed despair; it's the cycle that protects me, suspends me, prepares me for what I know awaits.
I am held in armor and masks and pitiful attempts to remain mobile, knowing the price of salt upon fresh wounds and open scars.
Blood is just another element, after all.
My hands dig into sandy banks and indifferent shores, as if they were slightly amused at my arrival. As if they expected me to come but couldn't be bothered enough to notice.
I am drunk with the freedom of it.
I am high with deprivation and the sudden recollection.
I have skipped and crashed and collided with the waves like solitary driftwood, every plank, every tattered mast, every splinter submerged in listless wandering.
It's why I'm stunned when I see it, a crisp, autumn moon. A mourning sun lighting up the sea. Mirrored fireflies from the heavens as they dance among fire.
It's the story of all I ever was, all I will never be, all that I've left behind in that forgotten place. The land of my fathers. The nation of my youth. The shore both distant and somehow connected to that dormant child.
The faces alight and come alive upon that smooth glass, lifting and scattering and settling like ash upon the waters. Faces of you, faces of me, faces of her and him and us and them. Faces without names and homes and steady lines. Faces I'll never forget, and faces I wish I could. Faces of hate and malice and jealousy and kindness. Faces of abuse and disappointment and betrayal and ecstasy. Faces I once recognized, and faces I never knew.
I drown in the brilliance of their pained, desperate glory. **Continued in comment section⬇️**