Lets take it back to my first big girl conference♥️ the gastroenterologist I worked with at the time (& my forever mentor) invited me to go to this 4 day convention in Chicago, as if he knew how much of an impact it would make on me. He booked the trip for the whole office and off we went on this venture🌸
The doc told me about the event and said, “This will look really good on your app, and maybe you’ll learn something.” And I did just that - learn - something. The convention crawled with drug reps, SWAG bags, activities, and lectures. This is where I realized the future of medicine is all in our diet and what we allow ourselves to eat. I still have a video Nataly took of me asking a lecturer a question about their presentation (I’m pretty sure I asked the NP from our office that question and she told me to wait until the end to ask) so, to not seem as if my heart sank into my stomach just THINKING of the idea of asking this scholar a question, I walked up to the microphone and did just that. I don’t even remember hearing myself speak at that very moment, i don’t even remember the presenter’s answer. All I heard was “great question” and my nerves began to calm.
I learned. I might not have learned so much about endoscopes and their technological advances, but I learned how to speak for myself. I learned how to be brave. I learned that if I don’t ask, I’ll never know the answer - and that’s enough for me to get over the idea of thinking whatever I have to say is irrelevant.