This truth has been KEY in my healing these past couple of years.
When I sought God’s approval, I remained imprisoned... a slave to never being enough, to the fear of condemnation, frankly of a literal hell.
When I began to simply seek God... everything changed.
I’m now so very aware of what each of these experiences feels like in my body and can tell almost immediately when I move to an approval seeking mode (still a regular occurrence in my life). Anxiety, fear, a gnawing sense of inadequacy and a deep sense of lack preside.
And I have to remind my inner girl she is enough exactly as she is before God and man.
EXACTLY as she is.
As I am.
And I move to a space of “just let me be with You. Let us be with each other.” And nothing has healed me more than just BEING with God. Being with myself. Finding God inside of me and sitting with Her.
Not asking how can I be better, not finding a verse to apply to my day to improve as a Christian (choose your religion), not prayer.
Not the therapy, the church, the journaling, the yoga, or even the people - though these all have been wonderful spokes on the wheel of my transformation.
No, the hub of presence - just BEING with myself and God - this has transformed me the most.
May I invite you, when you notice the approval seeker rising up in you (and it can be tricky, she may very well be most of what you see when you look in the mirror disguised as a seeker of God), to just sit and be with You in you.
A bit more each day.
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