dark or dull in color or tone; gloomy.
"the night skies were somber and starless"
synonyms:dark, drab, dull, dingy
oppressively solemn or sober in mood; grave.
"he looked at her with a somber expression"
synonyms:solemn, earnest, serious, grave, sober, unsmiling, stern, grim, dour, humorless
i wanna be loved and called a good girl and stuff but like,,,
eh i dont deserve that shit
my sister asked me if i wanted to get icecream and i said yeah but when we got there i started crying because i didnt want to go inside then i felt bad for acting like a brat but then i got mad at my social anxiety because i really wish small things like this didnt bother me but they do and i feel like shit for making my sister deal with me
i feel like my appearance is so boring.
i thought this issue i have with myself would be fixed once i turned 18 and could start expressing myself more. i got a tattoo and my nose pierced, but i still look boring to me.
i thought getting glasses again would add interest to me.
i need more tattoos.
i want to get my nails done.
maybe i need to wear makeup more. but to where? to work?
and i think i want to stretch my ears but i don’t know for sure about that anymore.
i’m so sick of my acne i just want clear skin so bad holy fucking christ.
when i dyed my hair from red to the brown it is currently, my first reaction was “shit i look so normal” and it’s been a downfall since then.
also, i never wear fun clothes because i don’t do anything ever so all i see myself in all the time is work clothes and it’s depressing. like it’s driving me crazy.
i don’t even have a “style” UGH i feel like such a boring looking human.
So guys I was thinking about life again...what if we are all are part of something bigger and what if we are all mean nothing..but I’m not the first they things about that and I’m not the first how has the idea to figure out things about life...cause the value of and idea does not have any specific relation with how honest is the human that expresses it..(The Portrait of Dorian Grey-page 21)
Have a great day guys!!!