It wasn’t until I became a mother myself that I truly acknowledged the grief I had for my mother not being present.
I’ve always known that I’ve carried it around with me, it’s always been there. But I never faced it properly and processed this pain I had.
Because I grew up with the mindset that because I had my nan and pops look after me, everything was ok and I should be grateful for having them.
At least I had my grandparents and I wasn’t in a childrens home.
I will never, ever say those two words to anyone.
Because it completely closes off any chance of connecting with someone and it doesn’t acknowledge what a person is saying or feeling in that moment.
Which can be very disempowering for the person opening their heart up for connection.
Those 2 words have kept me stuck in a place of not allowing myself to process this lifelong grief I had for my mother not being there when I needed her.
And I’ve searched for a very long time to be able to truly connect on a deep level with someone to fill this void I’ve had.
Connecting through words and presence can be so powerful.
But the truth is, this connection I’ve always wanted won’t ever happen with anyone other than myself.
Because only I can deeply connect with my soul to feel and process that pain.
So now I give myself the permission and compassion to nurse this life long aching I’ve had in my heart.
And by allowing myself to do this, means that I can fully let go of the expectation that I will find this connection with anyone other than myself. 🌹
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