To My Love.. I have to apologize to you, I said some things that weren’t quite true. I told you, you weren’t a King. That was a lie. I told you, I’d harm you. That was a lie too.
That was all anger speaking to you. I told you, a while ago, a foul against you, is a foul against God and I wasn't about that. That was the truth. And. I committed a foul.
My verbal abuse to you was a foul. It was also disrespectful, classless and goes against everything we believe in. Totally disturbing the peace.
When we met, you swept me off my feet. I knew I was healing, I never expected how I fell for you to happen. I thought we'd be best friends. That you'd see me transform. Then, we’d fall in love... Looking back, I should have looked past the attraction. I should have told you to find me when I was done healing. I should have told you I was still broken from my past and I needed to be sure I wouldn't cut you with my broken pieces. I don't know if it was fear of never finding you again, or if it was that need to have love... That wouldn't allow me to pull away. Either way, it was bad judgment. I could have saved us both some heartache. I'm sorry.
Ladies- if you're hurting, DO NOT DATE. WE MUST STOP BREAKING EACH OTHER. OUR KINGS, NEED US. TRUTH IS, WE NEED THEM JUST AS WELL. HEAL YOUR HEART COMPLETELY, BEFORE YOU LET ANYONE IN. ALL MEN DON'T COMMUNICATE THE SAME NOR DO ALL MEN KNOW HOW TO COMMUNICATE. SO IF YOU ARE USED TO COMMUNICATING FROM A HURT PLACE (THE PAST) AND HE CAN'T COMMUNICATE
IT’S CAUSE TENSION, THEN BOOM YALL BREAK UP AND BACK TO SQUARE ONE. NO!!!!! STOP IT. HEAL YOUR HEART SO YOU CAN GO IN WITH A CLEAR VIEW... DON'T TRY AND MAKE HIM COMMUNICATE WITH YOU, THE WAY YOUR EX DID YOU. LET HIM COMMUNICATE THE WAY HE KNOWS HOW. BUILD EACH OTHER UP, DON'T BREAK EACH OTHER DOWN.