"Time is a torch; not a pedestal." - L.O.
On a particularly low day in the midst of the high spirited holidays I found myself grumpy and isolated in an anonymous room on a rickety folding chair. I had trundled and grumbled my way to Everyone's Welcome. I was late, procrastination is passive aggression at it's finest. K. began to share. She'd had time I remembered. She had graciously introduced herself to me at a women's meeting months earlier and had explained that she'd had several years, more than 10,000 #onedayatatime
's. She then had less time than me. I remember trying to hide my shock. I read that part about "if one can only manage well" but naturally didn't take away what I should have. After K. shared and others had gone around I was watching the clock. I knew I could make it home and walk past all of the bars without drinking, but I felt isolated and anxious. Frankly grumpy about it. "Does anyone have less than 24 hours or the length of this meeting they'd like to celebrate with a chip."
K. raised her hand. Seeming, a bit like she wanted forgiveness but wasn't sure she would get it. Suddenly people were clapping. And saying "keep coming back, K!" And "We love you, K.!" I felt my eyes welling with tears. I couldn't believe it.
I stayed sober that day. K. gave me a gift of daily reprieve. It was just the latest example of the deep #humility
on her part and the #fellowship
that keeps me in #recovery
and in #alcoholicsanonymous
. Whether you have one day or over ten thousand time is a torch to light the path so others find their own ways to live this poignant life. There are no A+ AA's. I may not feel the same way about K. in the future but that isn't the point. The point is thar I have today; and that is because I had that day. So #grateful
. #recovery #emotionalsobriety #serenity #day431