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holidays are hard because there's so much pressure from family to have a little one. but they're not directly involved in it, so screw their timelines! we are trying, and hurting, and pushing through, and struggling and if they really knew our experience, they would not judge. don't let yourself be consumed with the suckiness of now. as long as you don't give up.. there's always tomorrow. I've decided when people ask tomorrow at dinner, I'll answer 'i hope one day' short and simple. conversation done! #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcaftermiscarriage #ttcsupport #ttcsisters #ttcrainbowbaby #ttcrainbow #ttc #ttcafterloss #missedmiscarriage #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriagehealing #miscarriagerecovery #miscarriagestory #miscarriagejourney #1in4 #iam1in4 #ihadamiscarriage #fuckloss #positivethoughts #blessingsarecoming
Anyone else put their life on PAUSE whilst TTC? My Fiancè and I put our wedding plans on hold after getting engaged in 2016, expecting to fall pregnant and have our baby fairly quickly. We're now nearly two years down the line and no closer to extending our family of two (plus the dog), and still haven't got married. I feel like we've got absolutely nowhere in the last two years... Anyone else? #pregnantpause #lifeonhold #ttc #ttccommunity #ttcsupport #ttcsisters #ttccommunitysupport #infertility #fertility #ttcafterloss #ttcaftermiscarriage #iam1in4 #iamoneinfour #babyloss #pregnancyloss #miscarriage #multiplemiscarriage #recurrentmiscarriage #ttcafterloss #ttc #recurrentmiscarriage #futurewedding #oneday
I’m going to say something right now that might come as a shock to you..... - Are you ready? - ...NOBODY IS PERFECT! Not one single person.🙆🏻‍♀️ - We all have our good days and our bad days! Hell, sometimes we have bad WEEKS! Different seasons of life bring us different obstacles. Sometimes we have seasons of sadness and sometimes we have seasons full of all good stuff!🙌🏼✨ - Whatever season YOU are in- embrace it! - Instead of focusing on trying to be perfect or trying to be the best everyday- focus on loving yourself a little bit everyday! Give yourself grace and just do the best you can! - I’m looking forward to a few days of relaxing and laying low with my little family!🙏🏼💕 - #teamorenda
So Frankie is on day 14 of his recommended recovery post surgery.. we are about ready to kill each other 🤬😂 we both need to get out.. but he’s still not 💯 ready for preschool. So today we wrapped up warm and hopped in the car to get out.. we went off to MK retail park for a little mooch, nothing drastic.. “let’s go to the big primark!” (Mummy’s fave 😍🙌🏻 grab some bits for the hospital bag 😅) heavily pregnant with a sore pelvis, baby nutting my cervix giving me electric shocks in my lady parts 😬 - a newly tantruming one year old and a temperamental four year old in tow..... what a smashing idea that was Chelsea... 👏🏻 Have a read about how terribly our shopping trip went today 🤦🏻‍♀️😂 over at my blog MummaFields. My latest blog is up: “I’m too pregnant for this sh*t..” 🤰🏻 Link in Bio 🌐🤗 . . . . . . #mummafields #mummybloggeruk #infantilesleepapnea #mummaknowsbest #mommyknowsbest #mummyknowsbest #mommyblogger #mompreneur #mumpreneurs #mumlife #momlife #mummasboy #igotyoubabe #mommybattles #babyandbump #yourestillmybaby #babynumber3 #mummyof3 #waveoflight #miscarriageawareness #miscarriageawarenessmonth #miscarriageblog #iam1in4
Five years ago today at 12:26 am, after 18 hours of natural labor and 6 hours and 26 mins of help from an epidural, my miracle boy was born. ⠀ ⠀ The struggle to get him to me was a long one. My heart endured more than I would ever want anyone to feel. It was ten long years of empty arms, disappointments, broken wishes, and unfulfilled dreams. It was ten long years of doctors, supplements, BFN tests, BFP tests that turned to BFN, flushing 9 babies down the toilet, blood draws, needles, bruises, hormones, and keeping myself together because it’s what I’m supposed to do. I am strong but in reality I am so very weak. ⠀ ⠀ He was the one carrying me and pushing me on when I could no longer get up. He was the one when every time I felt defeat and wanted to give up; I couldn’t shake the feeling to not stop. I never felt peace in being done and he is the reason. ⠀ ⠀ We did not find out the gender. We had waited 10 years for this experience and what was 9 more months. Honestly though; I think the true reason we waited was because knowing the gender and giving the baby a name made it real. We were both so protective of our hearts. I did however feel very strongly he was a boy. ⠀ ⠀ The words, “He is a boy!” from my husbands mouth the moment he was born will be forever imprinted in my mind. Happiest day of my life! ⠀ Today, five years ago, my sweet boy made me a Mom! ⠀ ⠀ Oh how grateful I am for this sweet boy. He was worth everything I endured. ⠀ ⠀ EVERYTHING!!!!!⠀ ⠀ I know this picture and post is a sensitive one. I pray it brings hope. I pray it brings strength. ⠀ ⠀ Never give up on your dream if you feel you are to keep chasing it. He is proof of that. 🌻🌻⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀
Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over.....it became a butterfly. 🦋 After a loss, many Moms find comfort in signs and symbols. For this Mom, butterflies and the idea of transformation are an important part of her and her babys' story..... of course her portrait had to relay this message. 😇 Ask me how I can turn your story and the memory of you child into a meaningful, heirloom portrait. #anythingispossible
1 whole year of knowing of you 🧡. After 9 months of wishing. Numerous scans to try & ease our worried minds. Finally, our little 🌈 and what a pretty, happy one at that! - - - - #smile #daughter #love #family #infant #child #baby #mum #mother #motherhood #mumblog #mummyblog #blogger #mumblogger #parenthood #parent #cute #instababy #instamum #picoftheday #twounderthree #mumoftwo #3monthsold #16weeksold #4monthsold #4weekspregnant #iam1in4
Seraphina is completely deaf and has never been connected with anyone....until me lol. She sleeps outside my bedroom door, follows me everywhere, friend here says I’m the cat whisperer lmao 🤣 #spiritualhealer #gypsy #owningmyself #clairvoyant #empath #sensitive #spiritmagnet #crystals #glitter #healer #psychic #writer #poet #artist #animalmom #oracle #multiplesouls #daddieslittleprincess #momslady #makeup #powerfull #piercings #tattoo #infp #paranormal #iam1in4 #secret #unicorn #ancient #romaniangirl 🌙🧛🏻‍♂️🗝💕 *I like most animals and spirits better than most living humans, it’s not personal; your brains are just very loud.*
Miss Violet can’t sleep without snuggling with me #spiritualhealer #gypsy #owningmyself #clairvoyant #empath #sensitive #spiritmagnet #crystals #glitter #healer #psychic #writer #poet #artist #animalmom #oracle #multiplesouls #daddieslittleprincess #momslady #makeup #powerfull #piercings #tattoo #infp #paranormal #iam1in4 #secret #unicorn #ancient #romaniangirl 🌙🧛🏻‍♂️🗝💕 *I like most animals and spirits better than most living humans, it’s not personal; your brains are just very loud.*
I wore this dress in black to our sons funeral. At the time I knew I had to buy the same dress in white. I had visioned that one day I would be able to wear it, and perhaps take photos through the forest, I had only taken maternity photos in, days before his passing. That it would be a symbol of light, of healing. Today I wore the dress for the first time. I’m not sure what it means.... Hope. I once seen the message that hope means ‘Hold On Pain Ends’. And whilst at the time I never imagined, it would even be possible. But today, I felt the light and I invited it into my life. Into my heart. To illuminate the darkness. #stillborn #stillbirth #iam1in4 #death #grief #love #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth #pregnancyandinfantloss #whathealsyou #lightandlove
“Well, I wonder which song they’re gonna play when we go. I hope it’s something quiet and minor and peaceful and slow. When we float out into the ether into the everlasting arms. I hope we don’t we hear Marley’s chains we forged in life. ‘Cause the chains I been hearing now for most of my life.” How one feels riding indoors! #TTTuesday #the59sound #thegaslightanthem #trilifestyle #trilife365 #trilife #iamthechange #indoorcycling #triathlontraining #320changesdirection #iam1in4 #whyitri
We sat down before we got married and talked about all of the hard things and the WHAT IFs that life may throw at us..we thought we covered them all BUT turns out we didn’t. - The beauty of our relationship is our COMMUNICATION game is Suuuuper STRONG! So, even though life has thrown us some curve balls we have gotten through it because we talk about it all! - Every morning we talk about what our day looks like, and what we could do to help each other with errands or stuff around the house! We discuss every evening how our days went and talk about the positive things that occurred! - If I’ve learned anything from our relationship, it’s that COMMUNICATION IS KEY!✨ - #teamorenda #iam1in4 #miscarriageawareness
“Gratitude helps remove our mental and spiritual barriers so that disappointment can give way to hope.” —@AdrielBooker (author of Grace Like Scarlett: Grieving with Hope after Miscarriage and Loss) . We’re thinking of you this week and praying that hope would rise in your heart. ♥️
Life is always better with this handsome guy by my side ❤️ ~ Whether it’s getting through a killer workout, or facing life’s challenges head on... I know that when we’re together, we can conquer the world 😘💪🏻
It’s Thanksgiving in just a day and a half for those of us in America. It’s a time we get together with family and share in thanks for all we have. ⠀ ⠀ This time of year can be so hard. It’s a reminder that we are missing what we most want to be thankful for. Being around family can be triggers both seeing other family members with babies and trying to avoid the unwanted advice or questions. ⠀ ⠀ I remember Thanksgiving 2007 at my in-laws. It was very hard. We flew from Las Vegas to Seattle. My two younger sister n laws we’re pregnant. One was very far along and showing. I put my game face on for as long as I could but spent a lot of that day in the dark in my in-laws bedroom on the floor hidden beside their bed. I sat and cried and cried some more. ⠀ ⠀ I finally picked myself up and got myself composed. I didn’t want to be that way. I wanted to share in the moment. I wanted to be happy. I hated myself for the feelings I had. I look back and realize it is just how infertility is. I shouldn’t have been so dang hard on myself. The split person came out full force and I had to battle between them. Oh how I hate when that happens. It still happens....oh wait it did today! 🤷🏻‍♀️⠀ ⠀ When I saw this quote today it made me think of that Thanksgiving and the many more I had childless. ⠀ ⠀ It was hard to find joy in the moment. I did though. I worked hard every Thanksgiving to write s blog post on what I had learned through the year and what I was thankful for. I didn’t have my baby. I wasn’t a mom. I did however have some pretty important things to be thankful for and I tried to focus on those. ⠀ ⠀ I know for some of you your cup is neither half full or half empty right now. You are just thankful you have a cup (you). ⠀ ⠀ I want you to know that it is ok. It’s ok to be there and feel that during this time. Just try to see that beautiful cup the way I see it! Know it’s pretty amazing and I’m thankful to know it (you)! ⠀ ⠀ Sending my love! Sending my strength! Sending my prayers as we roll right into the holidays so very soon. 🌻🌻
-@miramptacin in “Poor Your Soul”
I didn't think of the emotion I'd feel once I opened the white package that read Project Robby. I didn't expect to feel so many different things at once. The anticipation had me on edge.. excitement mixed with sadness. I ripped the package open and pulled out its contents and just looked at it for a minute before bringing the blanket to the side of my face in a cuddle-like gesture. It was perfect. The little hat with the flower, the beautiful rose pink color, the stitch pattern, its softness.. absolutely perfect. I never really cared for flowers before becoming pregnant with my Raelynn. During her almost 17 weeks of life, flowers were all I could think about for her.. Her little tiny outfits adorned in antique Rose's and carnations. After I found out she passed away, the scent of flowers were prominent everywhere I went including when I went no where.. on those days when I couldn't leave the chair I birthed her in. The people Project Robby really took the time to understand and decide the best set to send me.. the best one I could relate and connect with. I have a feeling the blanket won't be put on display but used to cuddle with on the days I'm missing my baby girl something terrible. Thank you @projectrobby24 . I will cherish these forever.. 💗 . . Visit the Facebook page with more reads and photos by clicking the link in the bio. . . #raelynngracedunn #ourangelraelynngrace #angelbabyraelynn #angelbaby #angelbabyaustin #pregnancylossawareness #pregnancyloss #miscarriage #1in4 #iam1in4 #babyloss #stillborn #stillbornloss #pregnancyandinfantloss #infantloss #gonebutnotforgotten #toobeautifulforearth #mommysflower #iloveyou #gonetoosoon #ihaveanangelbaby #mydaughterisanangel #mydaughterismyguardianangel #thyheavenlybirth #thyheavenlybirthrememberingourangelbabies
I heard my oldest daughter talking to her older brother (my son,) • • Sunny: Isaiah, you’re lucky that you got to hold me when I was born. I didn’t get to hold Malia. (My heat broke hearing that....) • • Isaiah: well, we are both kinda lucky because our sister is an angel. It’s really sad and I cry but she’s watching us and helping us. 🙏🏽😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 • • Sunny ended up drawing this picture and taking it to our family photo session. I’m blessed with the sweetest kids. 💕💕💕I never knew I could simultaneously be grateful and in agony because I have an angel baby. It is truly bizarre. #stillborn #stillbornstillloved #stillbornbaby #stillbornawareness #bereavedparentsawareness #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #missyou #missingyou #motherofanangelbaby #motherofanangel #bereavedparents #grief #grieving #grievingmother #grievingprocess #1in4 #iam1in4 #insageproduction
Did you know you can help to break the stigma surrounding pregnancy loss by wearing a pink and blue ribbon ❤+💙? Read more about the important role of support and healing in our blog post "5 Truths About Loss In Pregnancy". . . . . . . #iam1in4 #miscarriage #pinkandblueribbon #pregnancyloss
Continuing the introduction... this picture was from August 2015, the day I found out I was pregnant for the first time. Back then, we were THAT couple. We decided to try, tried once, got pregnant. (Go ahead, roll those eyes. I’m doing it too.) I left work early to find a way to tell my husband, because he’s a human lie detector and there was ZERO chance of me hiding it once I got home. This is what I came home with. Happy happy, joy joy. We called the doctor, set up the appointments, even told some family. Fast forward to the 6week ultrasound. At this point I had done some googling to prep myself, but was blissfully naive to what was about to unfold. We get into our ultrasound, the lady wands me (you know what I’m talking about) and..... nothing. Big ass nothing. To add to my already growing panic, nurse-lady (who has said NOTHING this whole time) casually says “there is nothing in that uterus”. *queue the rage and hell fire over that statement* To be continued....
as thanksgiving approaches, i am thankful for online shopping😂 truth be told though..i have yet to buy more pregnancy tests💔 when i found out i was pregnant i was in shock/ disbelief that after all of the BFN, i finally got a positive. i thought it was a fluke. i didn't want to get attached until my first appt. when i found out it would be at 8 weeks ugh i wanted to die from anxiety. i tested weekly, making sure the positive still popped up. little did i know my babies had stopped developing a week after i initially found out. i would have had a positive pregnancy test until the day of the surgery. i feel distrust with my body/ pregnancy tests until this day. a missed miscarriage is absolutely heartwrenching. i remember in the ultrasound the nurse practitioner was soooo quiet. i even said, 'I'm not pregnant huh?!' and her words broke my heart... "you're definitely pregnant, I'm just trying to see how far along and see if we miscalculated or if they stopped developing '. my heart shattered. no, that can't be, the stick said positive! ugghhh. worst time ever. im finality forgiving my body, but doesn't mean i trust it yet💔 #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcaftermiscarriage #ttcsupport #ttcsisters #ttcrainbowbaby #ttcrainbow #ttc #ttcafterloss #missedmiscarriage #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriagehealing #miscarriagerecovery #miscarriagestory #miscarriagejourney #1in4 #iam1in4 #ihadamiscarriage #fuckloss
I never thought I’d attribute infertility and loss with creativity and imagination but I have to admit there’s a connection for me.... . I still think infertility is cruel but it also forced me to really think and imagine what was most important to me: who could be trusted with my deepest fears and biggest tears; what injections did I need to pack with me on work days and where could I give myself a shot (and ideally not feel like i was shooting up anything illegal!); how could I get out of a conversation about pregnancy and babies without being disrespectful and still honoring the emotions bubbling up inside me; what did I feel the need to hold on to and what could I shift or let go of completely (still working in those but I’ve made huge progress!)? . So. Much. To. Consider. . As time wore on, I also had the opportunity to create. And I created more than craft projects in my free time...I created rituals for retrieval and transfers in IVF; I created traditions for the dreaded TWW (more for sanity than luck, but both were effective and important!); I created gestures to send my husband when I needed help escaping an awkward social situation; and I created connections with new friends and new communities who could validate and honor where I was in my journey on any particular day. . I don’t want infertility to rob me of anything more than it already has. I will imagine. I will create. I will be ok. . What have you created or imagined on your journey that has been helpful? . #findstrengthinthestory . #infertility #infertilitywarrior #infertilitysucks #ttc #iam1in8 #ihadamiscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesurvivor #lifeaftermiscarriage #iam1in4 #trustmybody #loved #lovedmorethanyouknow #motherhood #thisismymotherhood #changethestory #breakthestigma #mamastrongateverystage #adoption #adoptionjourney #adoptionislove #lovemakesafamily #mommainthemaking #yesactuallyican
Well, it's officially time to clean all our guns and get new locks on all our windows! February 2019 we will be welcoming Ms. Olivia Marie 💗💖🧜🏻‍♀️ . . . . . Special thank you to @gypsybuttonsphotography for our amazing pictures! . . #OliviaMarie #BabyDeupree #yearone #iam1in4 #itsagirl #mermaidbaby #teampurple #BlackRifleCoffeeCompany #NightForce #308 #762 #Oregon #RogueValley #thatoregonlife #adventureisoutthere #ourstory #OnCloudDeupree
Actual pic of me after STIM month 🤨 My hair has been limping along, my skin dull and dry, among other dislikes side effects these have bothered me the most. On a good day I feel Im pulling off Jack Nicholson from The Shinning ... So had my sister chop my hair, invested in some hair masks and some Clinique Bs for my money maker 😘 Anyone else having any after Stim side effects they wanna share? If only to vent about? #infertilityawareness #infertilityjourney #soulcysters 🌱 #notalone #iam1in4 #ivfjourney 💑 #Restmonth #dec2018transfer
✨ I Carried You ✨ The first declaration you read when you pick up the collection of cards. ✨ One of the few things that calms my soul is knowing that my babies only knew warmth, nourishment and love during their journey through space and time. I want that to be the first thing my heart remembers. ✨ For the short while they spent with us, they were held in the safest place. ✨ I carried them. And now my heart carries them. There is a distinct weight and feeling that comes with that. Some days it’s heavy, and other days I remember that Aila and Lior’s legacy lives through me, every single day. I feel responsible for that. And also incredibly proud. ✨ I will always carry them. . . . . . #icarryyourheartwithme #icarriedyou #ailaandlior #pregnancylossawareness #miscarriageawareness #ihadamiscarriage #iam1in4 #pregnancylosssupport #gift #quotes #thoughts #poetry #declaration #positiveaffirmations #babyloss #bereavedmother #bereavedparents #product #design #endlesslove
Today has been hard. But it’s also been a reminder that my little family is surrounded my incredible love ❤️ My hope is that we learn to offer that compassion and understanding to every person in our path every day. You may say I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. #lovefirst #compassion #kindness #cohenslegacy #cohentheelephant #liveonpurpose #childlosssurvivor #iam1in4 #friends #love #griefjourney #grieveoutloud #stillmothering
“It was lonely but I got along. Singing these ragged songs. But lately I’ve been at a loss for words. Lost faith but I’m trying to believe. I play the memories in my head like a symphony.” Taking in the scenery on today’s run! #becomingsecular #davehause #playlistfrommyrun #trilife #iamthechange #trilife365 #iam1in4 #triathlon #320changesdirection #running #mytherapy
“Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.” ⠀ ⠀ A “Forget Me Not” flower in honor of our sweet baby who we’ll never meet earth-side. I’ll carry you with me forever, and you will always be our third baby. I still remember every detail of finding out we were pregnant with you, and I’m holding onto that sweetness to drown out the sadness that ensued. ⠀ ⠀ This season has brought me so much closer to the Lord, and has given me a chance to shed light on something that 1 in 4 women struggle with, but many feel they can’t share about. It’s given me friendships and support I would’ve never had otherwise, and a newfound appreciation for my children—they are both miraculous blessings. Sometimes asking God WHY we are going through something isn’t beneficial. Instead, asking Him WHAT—“what are You teaching me through this season?” Is what ultimately draws us closer to Him.
. I’m currently back in New Zealand, so all products in my Etsy shop have free NZ shipping! . Link in bio! And check out story highlights for the meaning behind our design.
Our Christmas card this year 😂😂 Loving the cards and designs by @prettybyher This one just speaks to my soul 😆🍍🌈 #fuckinfertility
Happy 3rd birthday Buddy!!! Our lives would not be the same without you. We love and miss you every single moment of every single day forever! Hope you enjoy your balloons #babyrichardfranklin Even the one that floated up to you as soon as I walked out of the store!!! Went back in and got you another one 😉 . . . . . #chd #paristrousseau #beckwithwiedemannsyndrome #jacobsensyndrome #infantloss #nicu #lifeafterloss #howbigbws #chdawareness #iam1in4 #dukeicn #duke #iamstillstanding #raredisease #bws #childloss #babyloss #littlefighter #11q #stillstanding #pregnancyandinfantloss #neverforgotten #balloonrelease #inmemory #angelbaby #infantlosssucks #rarediseases #happybirthdayinheaven #happybirthday
My Babies!!! The love between these two is beautiful to watch. A constant reminder of Jesus’s love for us❤️ Some of you may not know this, but Jack and Declan are both “Rainbow babies”. A rainbow baby is a baby born shortly after the loss of a previous baby due to miscarriage, stillbirth, or death in infancy. This term is given to these special rainbow babies because a rainbow typically follows a storm, giving us hope of what’s to come. It is a constant reminder that God keeps all His promises. Miscarriages are hard to talk about. As women we feel ashamed or that we did something wrong. It has taken me almost 6 years and 4 miscarriages to publicly talk about mine. To all the mommas who are suffering with infertility, miscarriages or infant loss.. I want you to know I AM PRAYING FOR YOU. You will get your rainbow baby in Jesus Name. I’m not saying you will never forget the pain, but use your pain for good! I promise “Joy comes in the morning”. And Im telling you this now sister, it’s nothing you have done. “The devil comes to steel, kill and destroy.” He wants you to give up and keep quiet. Freedom comes when you open up and talk about your pain, when you stop dwelling on the past and the what if’s and you try again. No matter how many times you get knocked down.. I promise we have a God that is bigger than any circumstance you are facing. You are NOT alone! #1in4 #ihadamiscarriage #miscarriagesupport #godisbigger #love #freedom #prayer #iam1in4 #abundantlife PC: @anitapeekphotography
I’ve been having some pretty nasty #nightterrors due to #ptsd and #anxiety lately. My husband has been AMAZING about dealing with them, even enduring me grabbing him by the throat during one particularly harrowing experience. I’m lucky that he stands by me through all this. #IAm1in4
When your best friend writes this and sends you it.....I can't explain how lucky I am to have her, how much I needed this and how ill treasure every word forever. ❤ beyond speechless. I love it more than words can say. . . . #miscarriageawareness #miscarriage #1in4 #babyloss #iam1in4 #missedmiscarriage
Boils my piss when I get a new follower like this one! Look at my bio hun, my baby died so why the hell would I wanna follow you back (which is the reason you followed me in the first place) #vilomah #babyloss #iam1in4 #infantloss #babyloss #bereavedparent #haveaheart
I’ll have two eggs sunny-side up, please!🙋🏻‍♀️🍳 - I love scrambled eggs, poached eggs, hard boiled eggs, soft boiled eggs..you get the drift! I just love eggs! Haha!🙃 - Today’s creation was sautéed broccoli, onions, carrots & sweet potatoes with some garlic and two eggs sunny-side up on top! - 🙌🏼 - What’s your ALL-TIME FAV way to eat your eggs?🤷🏻‍♀️ - #teamorenda
Me and my other half established very quickly after our first miscarriage that we didn't have to pretend to be 'Ok' or pretend that we were having a 'Good day'. Instead we chose honesty, without needing the other one to try and fix it, or make it better. Sometimes a hug, a cup of tea, or an 'I understand' is all that's needed. Don't be ashamed to say you're not ok. You will be eventually. But right now, it's ok not to be ok. #miscarriage #recurrentmiscarriage #Multiplemiscarriage #infertility #fertility #ttcafterloss #ttcaftermiscarriage #iam1in4 #iamoneinfour #mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #ttc #babyloss #pregnancyloss #itsoknottobeok #oknottobeok #ttcsisters #ttccommunity #ttcsupport
Two years ago today, I gave birth to my baby boy. Frank and I named him Phoenix Abel💙. At 12 weeks old, he was tiny, but he was perfect. I like to imagine how he would be, how he is. Perhaps have a sweet disposition; curly hair, and freckles sprinkled all over his face. - A week after he passed away, I decided to make this print honoring our babies Frank and I lost: Phoenix, his sister Fuego and their older brother Russel. I imagine wherever they are, they are together in peace, having fun, and looking out for each other ❤️. It’s not the most detailed work I’ve done, but my focus this time was to do a representation of the joy I felt thinking of them together, at a time I felt so very low. - After losing my babies, I didn’t realize how many friends, family, and other women have lost babies of their own. It’s heartbreaking and far too common. If you have ever lost a baby, know that you are not alone. Some days are definitely harder than others, but just remember they are always with us ❤️❤️❤️ Live your best life to honor them
Wondering what your ADHD colleague is thinking about? A lot of cool shit. All at once. Sometimes having #ADHD is pretty amazing. #StrengthsNotStigma #amwriting #mondaymotivation #Adhd #brilliantminds
Went to TJ Maxx to find a bday present and I came across this necklace. Thought it was so cute. Gave me goosebumps actually. Sure enough after seeing this I found pennies randomly throughout my shift. I only was able to take a picture of this one. #stillborn #stillbornstillloved #stillbornbaby #stillbornawareness #bereavedparentsawareness #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #missyou #missingyou #motherofanangelbaby #motherofanangel #bereavedparents #grief #grieving #grievingmother #grievingprocess #1in4 #iam1in4 #pennies #pennyangel
What’s my favorite part about J. Elizabeth? The founder struggles with infertility, and is still waiting on her miracle baby. The J. Elizabeth foundation takes part of the proceeds from all of their Foundation Shirts and sets up donations for families with the same struggle. They help pay for IVF treatments and adoptions for people trying to make their dreams come true. 🙏🏼 As someone who struggled with fertility, and loosing 4 precious babies, this fills my soul with such happiness. I was blessed to get my two miracle babies and I love being apart of helping others get the same opportunity. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ #iam1in4 #helpingothers #findingtheirdream #infertilityawareness #adoptionrocks
How I feel when people don’t believe they can do it. ⁣ ⁣ Oh girl. ⁣ This whole fear you have + doubting yourself and what you’re capable of is a lie. ⁣ ⁣ I’m freaking out this morning. ⁣ I pushed play on a 30 minute workout. ⁣ ⁣ But. ⁣ I wasn’t the only one. ⁣ My community pushed play too. ⁣ ⁣ The awesome thing? ⁣ Many of them had the fear of failing. ⁣ Many of them lacked belief. ⁣ Many of them had quit before, but allowed themselves to TRY AGAIN. ⁣ ⁣ I’m so grateful. ⁣ Your fear of failure and not following though isn’t serving you. ⁣ ⁣ I’m here for you. ⁣ Do this with me. ⁣ ⁣ This journey of self-care is so much better with a community that shows up every day breathing belief into you. ⁣ ⁣ You deserve that. ⁣ ⁣ -⁣ -⁣ -⁣ ⁣ -⁣ #ttcrainbowbaby #sheworkshisway #ttcsisters #myjourneytofit #beating50percent #ttcaftermiscarriage #miscarriagesupport #godsgotthis #mkehome #norcalgirl #rescuedogmom #iam1in4 #letsdothis 💪 #letsdothisshit #babydust
It’s Monday morning and I’m already in deep thinking mode. Thinking about the goals to accomplish this last 45 days or so of the year. Goals and strategies for 2019. ———————————————————- So many things are on my mind, and excitement gets me this time of year for new possibilities, a new year full of experience and memories. I know that I will be able to achieve everything I want to in 2019. Is anyone else feeling this positive for the new year in this Monday??? 😂🙋🏼‍♀️ Let me know in the comments!
Like so many, this mom never got the chance to have an adorable newborn photoshoot with her daughter all curled up in those cozy positions --- but always dreamed of seeing her baby girl that way. By combining several photos, along with Mom's wishes, she can now see her #angel the way she has always wanted. 🌸🌸🌸 Gentle comments and inquiries always welcomed.
This week I am honored to share a post and giveaway from my friend Sarah Philpott, author of Loved Baby: 31 Devotions Helping You Cherish Your Child After Pregnancy and Infant Loss. Mourning is an expression of sorrow. And sometimes our sorrows are so sacred that we don’t necessarily want to speak our inner thoughts. And our sorrows stay put. Simmering in our minds. Simmering can be good. A steaming pot of soup perched atop the stove. Basil releasing its aromatic magic. But simmering can also be bad. Especially if words of negativity or sadness bubble within our souls. Brewing. Fermenting. Dear Soul, can I encourage you to do something? To help release your pain. Write through the wreckage. Admit your pain. Unpack your mind and put the words down on paper... To read Sarah’s beautiful post, complete with writing prompts to help heal your heart, visit LizzyLife.com. 💜 For a chance to win a signed copy of Sarah’s book, comment on this post and follow @elizabethlaingthompson and @sarahlphilpott on Instagram. (U.S. entries only.) A winner will be chosen on Monday, November 26. Sending love your way, friends. 💕
Newest little treasure thanks to my surrogate/adopted mom, apparently I’m her favourite child lol 😂 she thinks I’m a good girl....*tries to look innocent* 😇 #spiritualhealer #gypsy #owningmyself #clairvoyant #empath #sensitive #spiritmagnet #crystals #glitter #healer #psychic #writer #poet #artist #animalmom #oracle #multiplesouls #daddieslittleprincess #momslady #makeup #powerfull #piercings #tattoo #infp #paranormal #iam1in4 #secret #unicorn #ancient #romaniangirl 🌙🧛🏻‍♂️🗝💕 *I like most animals and spirits better than most living humans, it’s not personal; your brains are just very loud.*
❤ 19th November 2018 ❤ . Today would have been my due date with the little life I carried for just a short time . I wonder would he or he have arrived by now? Would they of kept us waiting? . We were so lucky to of seen your heartbeat and seen your little teeny body. You were ours and you were loved ❤ . I don't know what I expected from today but it hurts more than I thought . I just hope you know you'll never be forgotten and you mattered 👼 . . #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #1in4 #missedmiscarriage #pregnancyloss #iam1in4 #zoeclarkcoates #sayinggoodbye
“I definitely encourage couples to share their struggles. In pregnancies since the miscarriage we have shared the news earlier because we really felt that the support we received from friends after a loss was so helpful and that suffering in silence was terribly lonely and sad. The tradition of not telling anyone until 12 weeks in case you lose the baby baffles me now. Why would you chose to isolate yourself like that when your child dies?” —Alyce . Story by Alyce // Image by @anniespratt . . To share your story of pregnancy loss, tag us and hashtag #ourscarlettstories .
What if what you went through wasn’t meant to destroy you, but to develop you?⁣ ⁣ 🙌⁣ ⁣ Over the past two years, I chose self-care when it was physically + emotionally + mentally difficult. ⁣ ⁣ Today, I couldn’t help but be grateful that I didnt say no to self-care and choose self-sabotage instead. ⁣ ⁣ Girl. ⁣ ⁣ I’m here for you. ⁣ ⁣ I’m a miscarriage mama who just needed a positive outlet to help me cope. ⁣ ⁣ I’m a busy wife who wants to be her best for her hubby. ⁣ ⁣ I’m just a normal person who has obstacles but doesn’t want to use them as excuses.⁣ ⁣ THIS HOLIDAY SEASON, I have five more spots for my FAVORITE THINGS GIVEAWAY CHALLENGE. 🎁 ⁣ ⁣ Every day for 14 days, I give away gifts for those who workout and eat healthy. ⁣ ⁣ It’s a fun way to end the year and start before January! Get more info 🎉 LINK IN BIO or commenting below! 😘👊⁣ ⁣ -⁣ -⁣ -⁣ -⁣ ⁣#iam1in4 #godstiming #thanksgivingbreak #norcalgirl#ttcrainbowbaby #sheworkshisway #ttcsisters #myjourneytofit #beating50percent #ttcaftermiscarriage #marriedaf #rescuedogmom #marriedlife 💍
This is actually a much longer excerpt that I had to edit down for space. I love it though. For me it resonated with my experience on a deep level. 🦋 I will never forget the day we walked out of the ultrasound appointment just before I miscarried. We were standing in the hospital parking lot and my husband asked how I was feeling. I was so angry (but really sad) at my life and my body that I just screamed at him “empty!”. 😫 I was eventually ok. That moment ended up being a call to action for me. It made me fight for what I wanted. Change some habits and develop some new ones. Live and love my life with more urgency than I had before. The emptiness led to fullness in other ways. But the shadow of it all was hard to hide from. 💜 Sending love out to those identifying with this quote. . . . . . . . . #pregnancylossawareness #ihadamiscarriage #iam1in4 #pregnancyloss #rainbowbaby #pregnantafterloss #infertilitysucks #ivfsuccess #ivfbaby #webeatinfertility #saythefword #fertilityjourney #ttccommunity #infertilityawareness #ttc #ttcsisters #infertilitywarrior #iam1in8 #infertilityjourney #thisiswhatinfertilitylookslike #infertilitysurvivor #infertilityblogger #infertilityhope #ipreview @preview.app
“The deeper you stick it in your vein. The deeper the thoughts, there’s no more pain. I’m in heaven, I’m a god. I’m everywhere, I feel so hot. It’s not a habit, it’s cool, I feel alive....” checking numbers after crushing that ride! #notaddict #kchoices #maybeitsalie #trilife365 #iamthechange #trilife #trilifestyle #trilife #swimbikerun #triathlon #whyitri #ihavenothingelse #320changesdirection #iam1in4 #endurance365
*Sensitive Post*⠀ ⠀ I want to be so mindful of everyone’s tender feelings on here. I have gone back and forth on just how to do this post. ⠀ ⠀ I know that fertility treatments take every single dime and penny we have. I know that things are tight. I have been there and to be honest things are still tight with our debt from the treatments we did. ⠀ ⠀ BUT there is something so magical that happens to us when we have the chance to serve. When we have the chance to lift someone else’s burdens. ⠀ ⠀ This quote hit my soul. Happiness truly is found when we give and serve others.⠀ ⠀ The holiday season is approaching. This time of year is very hard. You long to be doing all the magical things with a child. I know the heartache. I know the longing. It’s hard. ⠀ ⠀ The happiest Christmas season for me was when I took opportunities to serve. When I forgot myself and lost myself in others. ⠀ ⠀ My dear friends and fellow TTC sisters @todaysthebestday and @highfitnesssam set up a service project. They are collecting items for The Lullaby Connection, which is a non-profit organization that helps families in need. They’re collecting items for 200 families and needs them by November 26th. ⠀ ⠀ This is where the SENSITIVE part comes in. They need specific baby items. I understand if this is something you can’t do BUT I can’t let this opportunity go by without sharing. ⠀ ⠀ If you want to help here are 4 ways:⠀ ⠀ Next time you are out running errands grab an item from this list and mail it to:⠀ ⠀ Today’s The Best Day⠀ 1575 West Horizon Ridge Parkway⠀ #531355 ⠀ Henderson, Nevada 89012⠀ ⠀ 3-6 Months Sleepers⠀ 3-6 Months Onesies⠀ Newborn Onesies⠀ Baby Booties⠀ Baby Hats⠀ Receiving Blankets⠀ Drawstring Backpack Bags {Dollar Store}⠀ Diapers⠀ Baby Wipes⠀ Hand Sanitizer⠀ Hygiene Items⠀ ⠀ #2 Order an item from the Besties Baby Registry on Amazon and have it delivered straight to Today’s The Best Day! ⠀ ⠀ #3 You can send $5 to @todaysthebestday through VenMo. Her team will purchase items needed with those contributions.⠀ ⠀ #4 . If you live in the valley you can bring your stuff to me at #hightfitness on Tuesday at the Robindale bldg. ⠀ Thank you for those who can contribute. 😘❤️
Tree is up, and we have some angel wings for Baby Hope on our tree for her first Christmas in Heaven. “Loss leaves a pain no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal” 🎄👼🏻💖 #angelmum #babyloss #angelbaby #miscarriage #pregnancyloss #angel #love #grief #baby #angelmom #babies #loss #iam1in4 #mummyofanangel #bornstill #angelbabies #babylossawareness #angelmummy #miscarriageawareness #angelparents #parentofanangel #stillbornstillloved #memories #missyou #pregnancylossawareness #breakthesilence #angelparent
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